Friends, Family & Social Skills

So my mom wants me to make friends.

It’s not like I haven’t made friends before. I made a few at university, some I even still talk to on occasion. Unfortunately, I’m in a different country from them so I’m not able to see them socially. In some ways I feel like I’ve reverted and been out of practice for a while that when I do have to go out and socialize I’m relieved when it’s over because I seem to get tired after a certain point of socializing that in the end I find myself to be very drained afterwards which then leads me to feeling emotionally drained. And yet, I do want friends. I do want to cultivate friendships and have healthy and happy ones were I have friends that actually want to be around me, and not have me on the outer layer of their friendship circle. And yet I’m also reluctant to put myself out there because I’ve been out of active practice and I’m worried that nobody would want to “hang out” with me.

Does anyone else feel like this? Do you also get very tired...