Asperger's & Autism Forum

Many people have said how they view their autism as a "gift" and how they would never want to change it. I don't think that way of thinking is bad, but I just don't understand it in my case.

Asperger's has been mostly a giant pain in the ass. It has impacted my ability to socialize and has made me come off like a huge jerk sometimes. It has gotten treated to the point where I can mimic NT pretty well to a point, but at the end of the day I feel exhausted for mimicking. It's also affected how other people treat me. Some people don't treat me any different, but others either treat me like a complete inept baby or are just unsympathetic assholes.

This is mostly just a vent and I'm not saying it's bad to view autism as a gift. Far from it. In fact, I am envious of people who view it as such and are able to not let autism affect them so much. Don't get me wrong, I don't see autism as an illness or a disease that needs curing either, since that is just pseudoscientific jargon that...

Im asking for words of help.
I let myself become a mother even though I didn't want to. Mainly because of my own lack of communication when there was a fine time line to abort mission.

Either way im suffering a depression caused from lifecrisis mental and life breakdown which resulted in me having a child .

All this continues in my head whilst im trying to raise my child as a single mum.

My question of help is how do you deal with your emotions and meltdowns whilst caring for your child?
This week I've had two complete utter meltdowns from being overloaded overwhelmed and cracked open by the temper tantrums of my screaming child. Ive regrettably shouted at my child this twice this week and wanted to push her away from me when ive found it over bearing. I'm finding it harder to controll as she launches at me when in tantrum mode herself .

My instant reaction is to run away from it but I cant run from my daughter. Can anyone give me any tips ? I realise this isn't the...

Do atypicals have this obsession with keeping everything neat around them? I always keep my car clean and house, because I can't stand a little dirt being around me? I know it's good to be clean anyways, but can atypicals have an obsession with it?

I seem to have spent a great deal of my adult life trying to avoid "feelings" to keep myself in a state of equanimity, avoid feeling overwhelmed and vulnerable - particularly in relationships where the closeness to another person tends to trigger all these things and results in my withdrawal either emotionally or physically or both.

In some ways this has been a success but in others I now see that it has limited the way that I live, that I have created a shell of self protection around the real me which is exhausting to maintain.

How much of this is something that comes with the ASD territory and how much is a response to the multitudinous small rejections that come from being different, from not being accepted during childhood?

I am hoping to gradually learn to sit with my emotions, to stop running from discomfort and to find real freedom.

What do we know so far in neuroscience when it comes to the treatment of Aspergers?

Does anyone else experiences extreme eye pain when too hungry and when exposed to sunlight? Does anybody else experiences eye pain at all? For me those 2 situations are triggering of a really deep pain, i feel like my eyes will fall out the orbit

I have been planning my first foray into the literary works. And my biggest idea involves joining the ranks of Adam Huber and White Lightning Productions; I want to write a webcomic. But with a partner who will do the art. My drawing skills...Aren't good. They're terrible.

The premise is your classic "roommates up to shenanigans." Only with supernatural creatures and magic. More:

The species' of my three leads. The Leader/Schemer is going to be a vampire. But I can't easily decide what the Dumb One and the Sane One should be. Should I make the Sane One human? Or would that lead to Unfortunate Implications? Should the Dumb One be a fairy or a Were? I may do the latter because I want to appeal to certain demographics.

Should they all be girls? All boys? Two boys and one girl?
Yes, I will steal stuff from other webcomics. Mostly the bad ones, so I can improve them.

Hi,

I was wondering if in Aspergers not having a job or something to do can make things worse? I used to work full-time in a highly functioning job but due to a severe Zoloft reaction (and temporary valium addiction) I had a nervous breakdown and lost my job. I was quite highly functioning with a job but now I'm depressed, addicted to my mobile phone and can't be bothered getting out of bed till early mid afternoon. I don't want to be like this and feel increasingly hopeless. Is this common with our disorder? Where could I go or what could I do to break free of this? Thankyou.

my hypothesis is that, when interacting with another:

Aspies focus on that which causes the least amount of pain and hurt, such as dedicating their energy towards their work or their art or a special interest. Doing so exasperates the party that is perceived as causing the pain and hurt, for which that party tends to apply more speaking/criticism/doubt (pain and hurt) because the aspie is not paying enough attention to the party and is not responding.

Almost like we'll do anything to avoid pain and hurt.

What are your thoughts?