Asperger's & Autism Forum

Do you eat the typical 3 meals a day & snacks? Or maybe every 2 hours?
Or do you have your own way that's not overwhelming?

Will Peltor work for VERY sensitive hearing? I can't even go into Walmart without having a complete meltdown, and I need my headphones playing music to block out the loud engine while driving a 4-cylinder car.. I drive to college classes through the expressway every day, and even in class, I can't stand the loud, popping stapler, bumping of people dripping backpacks, popping binder rings, high-potched squeaky doors, slamming bathroom doors. At home, it's clanging dishes, roaring engines from outside, popping doors when they close, my high-pitch-voiced brother, screaming girls on TV (some show my mother watches), any whistles on TV or videos. While driving, it's the 4-cylinder engine and the high a pitched whistling of the road (especially on the expressway). Outside of home, I can't walk into Walmart because of the loud clacking and popping, screaming kids, squeaky equipment, slamming/bumping.

Every day is TORTURE! I'm a 19-years old female with VERY sensitive hearing to all of...

I was diagnosed 6 years ago, but my family is still unaware.

For context, I've always had a difficult relationship with my family. After I turned 16, I left home and started meeting with a psychiatrist. My family interfered by calling the psychiatrist at his office and telling him that they thought I was psychotic. They might have been afraid that I would mention the physical abuse and wanting to protect themselves by saying that I "make things up". That's a cynical interpretation, because it's also true on my part that I was severely sleep deprived and acting aggressively. So based on that, I was diagnosed with psychosis, which was then dropped and replaced with PDD-NOS, but only after nearly two years. Since I was under 18, it was difficult to get anyone to take me seriously. I didn't speak to any of them for 7 years after that. All the evidence seemed to suggest that they'd be happy with that.

But in the last year, I started talking to them again. I felt guilty for not being...

My best friend suffers from depression, or so he claims. I am trying to understand the manifestations of it, because it seems very different from how I experience depression or how I’ve heard others describe it.

What I am hoping to do is understand it better and discern if his behavior is depression-driven or if he is merely acting like a swine and blaming it on the depression.

When depression strikes me I get into a funk; I feel sad and prefer to be alone. Over the years I have taught myself to power through until it passes, because I know that if I don’t it may overtake me. The most extreme thing I have done has been to shut myself off from people for several days or binge eat Keebler cookies.

My buddy can be manic (happy one minute and in a funk the next), but he also has made some very unsound decisions like buying a vehicle he cannot afford; he’s two months behind on his payments. He has skipped out on paying his bills. He buys things he does not need nor can afford....

Throughout my life, I kept hearing about people with autism having these things called "special interests" where autistic people would find themselves having an obsessive interest in something. Despite being autistic myself, I did not recall myself ever having anything like this which had lead me to assume that I simply didn't have this trait. But I made a friend on the internet and I think he might have become my special interest. It's weird, I can't stop talking to him. It's literally never boring. I could do it all day. And I don't seem to feel that way towards anyone else. But I have never heard of the idea that a PERSON could be someone's special interest. Is it possible that my friend is my special interest?

My husband actually is going to be the one to open the conversation about me being on the autism spectrum. He will outline what he notices about me and says that he is keen for me to discuss my terrible anger issues and "unforgiving nature" ( that is a misnomber, for if a person asked for forgiveness, I am ready to forgive and really happy to).

He agreed that his word will be listened to over mine ( horrible to acknowledge that, but I am a realistic person and so, better to acknowledge that my word counts for very little and work with it, than hide from it).

I am also willing that if there is meds for anger issues that do not cause weight gain, I will try and to talk about my past.

I so hope it is a productive meeting.

I really don't find school challenging at all. It's kinda boring. I have pretty much been doing the exact same since the first quarter of 9th grade: Study a just a little bit, take an assessment or test, crush said assessment/test. It gets kinda boring. I want my schoolwork to challenge me. I also get the correct answers in a shorter-than-usual amount of time compared to other students. You may be wondering: Why are you disappointing? You are the kind of student that teachers praise! Well, to answer that question, it's because it I am so smart (sorry if it seems like I'm bragging) it feels like I'm cheating, even though I'm doing all of the work myself. It kinda sucks, to be honest. I also have gained a reputation among my teachers that I am the most useful student, since I answer questions other students have (this is online school), and correctly, too. That also feels kinda boring. School is so easy for me right now, it kinda feels like I'm a much less physically invulnerable...

I know I sound like I'm just hating my own species (I actually love my family and friends with all my heart, thank you!), but let me ask this.

Do people stare at you with dirty looks?

Are people rude to you?

Are people too obnoxiously loud with their items and just their voices in general? (Imagine sometime popping a stapler in your ear. I would growl and snap at them like a dog.)

Do people blow their breath in your face when they talk to you?

Do people overestimate you and then get mad when you can't accomplish what they expected?

Do people laugh at you?

Do people judge you by your size or gender?

Did people try to bully you (some of them got bitten by me) in school?

Is this because they do or don't know you have autism? (I never even knew I was autistic ((and still awaiting diagnosis)), but I've always HATED people who did the above)

Do people give you mixed messages, expecting you to get it right away and then blame you when you mess up?

Do people say you get...

So this might be a bit of a rant/vent post but I have to get it off my chest.
Also, I should probably add that this isn't directed at anyone but me and how I feel just so nobody mistakenly takes offense.

I hate having aspergers. I hate everything about it, everything from not being able to have a simple conversation with another human being, to not being able to follow a simple routine.
I hate not being able to have a normal job, make friends and enjoy spending time with them, not being able to look the cashier in the eyes and say "Hello, how are you?" instead of just standing there silent as I stare at the card reader and punch in my code before awkwardly walking away. I hate not being comfortable with intimacy to the point of being unable to give my family members a proper hug or even hold someones hand.

What I hate even more is that I seem to be completely unable to "accept" it. Why can't I just accept that this is who I am and how I am? Why do I feel so trapped? Why do I feel...

Hey guys

Sorry for using you again but need some opinions. One of my mates is starting to annoy me (sometimes) don't want to anger him as we get along most of the time.

To cut to the chase he has schizophrenia with a messiah complex and believes he's a genius.

I got used to not arguing with him but lately he's turning a little nasty, forcing debates, trying to undermine me infront of people.

What anoying is he talks about theoretical physics and runs into areas that are difficult to prove or dissprove (things that no bugger knows) if you try to argue he will just say you're jealous of his mind.

I can't this will just turn into a wall of text.

What would you do

Would you talk to him about this ?

Call him out for pseudoscience ?

The best way I can think is starting a small weekly challenge to build\make something. show him he's hiding in theory without practice ? Tho it might be a very bad idea.

I don't know how to handle this.