"What makes you cry?"
The short answer: almost everything lol, I can honestly say that I cry every day.
This is the long answer:
I cry when I'm happy, sad, angry, scared, overwhelmed, proud, stressed, injured, sick, burned out, or anxious.
I think I cry equal amounts at happy things and sad things, but the thing that I find the most heartbreaking that is guaranteed to make me cry is people being mean, abusive, violent, or bullying. To other people, and animals, and to me or people I care about. Sometimes even people being mean to inanimate objects makes me cry, even though that's really embarrassing to admit. I have mentioned on here several times that I feel so much empathy that it's painful and emotionally draining.
This hasn't happened recently, thank goodness, but there have been a handful of posts on here in the time I've been here that were so unnecessarily mean and hostile that I actually cried after reading them.
This is kind of a side note, but I get really upset when people step on flowers or run them over. I don't like buying fresh flowers because they die after a few days and that makes me really sad.
Death is another thing I find really distressing. Not only will losing a loved one or a friend or a pet make me cry for a long time, but I will be haunted by it forever. I forget what it's called but there's actually a thing (maybe a disorder?) where people are permanently traumatized by grieving and it can actually cause kind of like a PTSD reaction. I definitely have that. I have been through a lot of unimaginable trauma and even very extreme child abuse, but losing my adoptive grandparents was one of the absolute worst things that's ever happened to me and I am legitimately traumatized.
When I have dogs and other pets that pass away, I tend to not really talk about them anymore because it's so painful. I still think about all of them all the time, but talking about it hurts.
This is another tangent, but to give an example of just how emotionally sensitive I am, one time I was watching TV, I don't remember what show it was but there was a scene where someone threw a stuffed animal in the trash, and it distressed me so much that I had to shut off the TV. That scene haunted me for a long time. I hate to admit it but this was relatively recent lol, like in the past couple of years.
I haven't told anyone that story before.
Movies, videos, music, and books make me cry a lot, whether it's a positive storyline or a negative one. But I think music makes me cry more than anything else because it makes me visualize things, some of which are deeply personal.
Movies where dogs, cats, or children die or are in significant danger are a huge no for me. Movies with disturbing or depressing themes, or will decrease my level of faith in humanity, are also an absolute no.
I've mentioned this before but true crime content makes me very sad. I love mysteries and investigative stories, but I can't handle true crime shows or videos because I am so disturbed by what happened to the victims and their families. I also get overwhelmed and scared thinking that it could've happened to me or someone I know. My entire childhood could've been a true crime story and I unfortunately have to be reminded of that on a regular basis (yes, there were actual crimes committed towards me, and they were pretty heinous.)
I can't watch the news either because it makes me too sad and scared. I have not watched televised news in over two years and I stick to only reading very straightforward and rational articles.
It's really hard for me to not burst into tears when I accomplish something big or win something, or when I'm proud of someone else. I am very emotionally affectionate towards people I care about and I do feel very proud of them when they succeed.
People being angry with me, being overly critical of me, or saying I failed at a task or did something wrong, is guaranteed to make me cry or at least feel very distressed. I will also apologize profusely and feel guilty.
When people are mean to me, I don't forget about it for a long time. I sometimes get very upset remembering something horrible someone said to me over a decade ago.
But people being kind to me in a way that stands out overwhelms me and makes me cry too.
Being in pain also makes me cry. I have an incredibly low threshold for pain. I don't only cry, but I almost always black out and sometimes I faint or throw up.
Before I had the hysterectomy, I had pelvic pain that made me shake uncontrollably and sob.
I am so glad I will never be able to give birth because I doubt I would survive, and I'm being completely serious.
TL;DR I cry at everything. I'm obviously overly sensitive and an emotional mess, and yes, I am getting help.
The short answer: almost everything lol, I can honestly say that I cry every day.
This is the long answer:
I cry when I'm happy, sad, angry, scared, overwhelmed, proud, stressed, injured, sick, burned out, or anxious.
I think I cry equal amounts at happy things and sad things, but the thing that I find the most heartbreaking that is guaranteed to make me cry is people being mean, abusive, violent, or bullying. To other people, and animals, and to me or people I care about. Sometimes even people being mean to inanimate objects makes me cry, even though that's really embarrassing to admit. I have mentioned on here several times that I feel so much empathy that it's painful and emotionally draining.
This hasn't happened recently, thank goodness, but there have been a handful of posts on here in the time I've been here that were so unnecessarily mean and hostile that I actually cried after reading them.
This is kind of a side note, but I get really upset when people step on flowers or run them over. I don't like buying fresh flowers because they die after a few days and that makes me really sad.
Death is another thing I find really distressing. Not only will losing a loved one or a friend or a pet make me cry for a long time, but I will be haunted by it forever. I forget what it's called but there's actually a thing (maybe a disorder?) where people are permanently traumatized by grieving and it can actually cause kind of like a PTSD reaction. I definitely have that. I have been through a lot of unimaginable trauma and even very extreme child abuse, but losing my adoptive grandparents was one of the absolute worst things that's ever happened to me and I am legitimately traumatized.
When I have dogs and other pets that pass away, I tend to not really talk about them anymore because it's so painful. I still think about all of them all the time, but talking about it hurts.
This is another tangent, but to give an example of just how emotionally sensitive I am, one time I was watching TV, I don't remember what show it was but there was a scene where someone threw a stuffed animal in the trash, and it distressed me so much that I had to shut off the TV. That scene haunted me for a long time. I hate to admit it but this was relatively recent lol, like in the past couple of years.
I haven't told anyone that story before.
Movies, videos, music, and books make me cry a lot, whether it's a positive storyline or a negative one. But I think music makes me cry more than anything else because it makes me visualize things, some of which are deeply personal.
Movies where dogs, cats, or children die or are in significant danger are a huge no for me. Movies with disturbing or depressing themes, or will decrease my level of faith in humanity, are also an absolute no.
I've mentioned this before but true crime content makes me very sad. I love mysteries and investigative stories, but I can't handle true crime shows or videos because I am so disturbed by what happened to the victims and their families. I also get overwhelmed and scared thinking that it could've happened to me or someone I know. My entire childhood could've been a true crime story and I unfortunately have to be reminded of that on a regular basis (yes, there were actual crimes committed towards me, and they were pretty heinous.)
I can't watch the news either because it makes me too sad and scared. I have not watched televised news in over two years and I stick to only reading very straightforward and rational articles.
It's really hard for me to not burst into tears when I accomplish something big or win something, or when I'm proud of someone else. I am very emotionally affectionate towards people I care about and I do feel very proud of them when they succeed.
People being angry with me, being overly critical of me, or saying I failed at a task or did something wrong, is guaranteed to make me cry or at least feel very distressed. I will also apologize profusely and feel guilty.
When people are mean to me, I don't forget about it for a long time. I sometimes get very upset remembering something horrible someone said to me over a decade ago.
But people being kind to me in a way that stands out overwhelms me and makes me cry too.
Being in pain also makes me cry. I have an incredibly low threshold for pain. I don't only cry, but I almost always black out and sometimes I faint or throw up.
Before I had the hysterectomy, I had pelvic pain that made me shake uncontrollably and sob.
I am so glad I will never be able to give birth because I doubt I would survive, and I'm being completely serious.
TL;DR I cry at everything. I'm obviously overly sensitive and an emotional mess, and yes, I am getting help.
