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I have spoken a lot to my husband on the journey of learning about ASD.....but I don't get a lot of response. He is very patient and understanding, though. But now, when I express frustrations as an Aspie.....he just looks like it is adding strain on him. And he doesn't have much response - he will respond to situations some, but my emotions/reactions seem way too intense for him. I think it is damaging and stresses him out. This is where I think having this site and these members to...

So.....my poor executive functioning and being overwhelmed with the new job have caught up with me. I had some unexpected things come up - medical appointments and car problems - and trying to juggle the new things into my schedule, I wound up late to work. I am new...so nobody had my number yet, and I didn't have their numbers. I did know I needed their numbers and they would need mine, but i was never actually asked or given a place to submit my number, and I was never given the list of...

I had been seeing a doctor who was very nice, and the one with the highest reviews and most experience with my particular health condition. However, I am directionally challenged, and my GPS would go nuts trying to get me there. The area is unfamiliar to me and quite confusing with winding roads and many huge parking lots with a college campus near the hospital campus and the buildings being distant and hard to differentiate and identify for me. Even if I could find the building, the way...

I need to do this in diagnostic criteria examples which ill do later....for now these are the symptoms i think fit into the criteria in no special order I walk on my toes because i hate how the floor feels on the soles of my feet. i would walk on my toes in public if it wasn't seen as weird i could eat tacobell everyday if my husband didnt tell me otherwise certain sounds drive me fucking crazy! for example the fan on the stove or bathroom. Certain music does it too and my bird. It is...

A very useful insight that has been helping me a lot at my new workplace is the realization that "it's not what I think", or "it's not what I think it's about". When people speak to me, or when I listen to them speaking to each other, realizing that the true purpose of what they are saying and why they are saying it is different from what I would naturally think it was all about is helping me stay on the main/safe path rather than wandering off on in appropriate side trails that the...

I will never be "cool". Never have been. At our church, everyone is friendly. Within that over all friendly community, there are smaller groups of people who gravitate towards each other through commonality. Well, there is one group that's kind of "cool" I guess. They are in no way snobby or anything like that, but they are socially savvy, funny, interesting - all that good stuff. But I can't keep up with that. We have been invited to several events with them, and it brings back that...

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This blog used to be called Sarah's Blog but I decided to rename it something else. This blog is now called Blog of Days, and it's a spin on the name of The Psychedelic Furs' sixth album Book Of Days (1989). Even though the name is Psychedelic Furs related, this blog is still not about music. Only just my personal life. Like I said before, my main blog is Beautiful Chaos, so I won't be active on this blog. Only if I want to write about something that's non-music related. Anyway, thought I...

If you feel moved to help the recent hurricane victims, but do not know where to donate, you might want to consider donating to Lutheran Social Services. They are separate from the Lutheran Church and are very efficient. 100% of your money donated goes to victims. They do not spend any money on advertising or other fluff that will waste your hard-earned dollars. Many more famous relief organizations spend large amounts of every dollar donated, on administrative costs, or salaries for people...

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I had a turning point moment last week when I happened upon Howard Stern interviewing Jerry Seinfeld on radio (recorded 9/25/17). Seinfeld is usually reticent to reveal himself in interviews but these are yappy friends and he let his guard down. At one point Howard asks, "Are you on the spectrum? Do you think you’re on the spectrum” and Jerry says, "They don’t take the spectrum out that far." Howard: “Do you think you have some sort of disorder?” Jerry: “It’s worked for me so I wouldn’t...

Maybe my anxiety is also just a result of being disregulated. I've been reading as much as I can about Aspergers in the workplace, and there's useful info on being disregulated and needing to be more intentional about trying to regulate oneself with smart routines. I used to hate routines in the sense that i didn't want to have to stick to anything - but I think I can really benefit form routines. I came up with a night time routine, and it was amazing how much more relaxed I felt by the...

I used to try very hard to make my workspace seem like home, to reflect my personality and interests. It was an attempt to create a little safe haven nest at work, to try to escape/block out my surrounding situation (the workplace). It didn't help reduce my work anxiety. It may have made it worse, since I was trying to avoid what was around me rather than accept it. I've also in the past just not decorated at all, because I didn't care about my workspace - it wasn't home, it was work, I...

It's not that I mind explaining things that have been asked. But in general, I don't like being boxed. I feel that once people know about my religion, they will not be as open and trusting in approaching me, that they have stereotypes and ideas of their own of how I "must" be, they censor themselves more, they make assumptions - basically, they begin to react to their preconceived ideas about me rather than actually reacting to the way I am treating them. And I like for people to be open...

Several months ago, I would have told you that any given moment I couldn't tell you what I was feeling. I couldn't access any sense of feeling anything in particular. Over the past 4 days, I have been able to access my feelings - and it's always some form of anxiety. I even wake up with it. I started exploring this feeling by giving voice to it in my head - in my mind, screaming, shrieking, yelling out what I was thinking and feeling, chanting it over and over again in any number of...