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"Hey I'm sorry about coming off as a creep I don't know why I did that crap and I know you must hate my guts right now. Honestly speaking I'm used to talking to women face to face or thru text because of the fear I'd do some stupid stuff like that. I didn't mean for that to happen either I got on the phone I got nervous and talked real low cause I didn't want to mess up. Like I'm mildly autistic which I'm other words means that I'm not that good at interacting with people especially cute...

In case any of the new people I met the last few months wonder why I say some outreagous stuff. I experienced something very messed up to the point I needed counseling for 3 months back in 2015, aka my father's slow transition from one world to the next from lung cancer. I say that it was a slow transition because he spent his last month on this earth on life support, that image alone would mess someone up pretty bad. Why am I saying this? I strongly believe that most people have some...

With Three. Not too shabby, £17 a month for "All You Can Eat" minutes and texts and 30 Gig data. Only thing is I've been with Three before and I don't think they have UK call centres, but hopefully I won't have to ring them until about this time next year to give 30 days notice if need be. Also been in the Co Op to get this week's Lottery tickets.

So I applied to ASDA (Walmart to the Americans) this Wednesday, and yesterday I got an email saying they weren't taking my application further, sorry but I cannot workevenings or nights, especially not in the Chav infested s5. I also got an email this morning from WH Smith's, "after careful review, we have decided not to take your application further", WTH? Is this because I declared my AS and other disabilities? Equal opportunitues my ass, they say that because they have to, they DON'T...

In New Zealand, students get 2 weeks off every 10 or 11 weeks. Right now it's around 1 PM on Friday, the 12th of October, AKA the third to last day of the 2 week holiday. I found myself missing school for all of the holidays, which is unusual to say the least. I don't dislike school. My teachers are friendly, and they do anything in their power to accomodate me. They understand if I'm unable to speak, they can tell when something is wrong, some of them even fight off students who keep...

In this sleep-deprived ramble, I'll be complaining about people who complain about people who complain. That is, people who find complaining objectionable in some way, shape, or form. If there's one way I feel stifled, one way in which I feel I am not free to express myself, it's when I find myself discontent. Excessive complaining seems to be a social taboo, but I argue that society is doing itself a disservice by frowning upon complaining. What happens when someone complains? By which, I...

Topic. Applied on their website for "ambient" (whatever that is?) customer service work at the Chaucer Road store, bit awkward to get to but I know where it is, it's near where I do my Digital Arts course on Thursday mornings. Don't worry, I won't disclose my opinion that Parson Cross is full of Chavs.

Filled one wheelbarrow full of leaves from raking part of the backyard today. Better than zero wheelbarrows. Wasn’t feeling very productive today; was actually feeling pretty lousy emotionally. I did feel better after doing this one small spur-of-the-moment, spontaneous activity, so that’s something on which to build.

The reality of having my own place again is very far away. If nothing goes wrong (& when does that happen?), it will still take YEARS... I’m feeling suffocated. There’s nothing to be done about it but just sucking it up. That’s life. Even if I still manage to get my own place within this lifetime, there will still be problems. There always are. Things breaking. Neighbors. Noise. Exchanging one set of problems for another set of problems.

Still no news! I'm expecting an email from Game this week because I put that I can attend interviews any Tuesday, Wednesday or Friday from this week. And I applied to what might've been the perfect position last week, paid position in a Charity shop in Hillsborough, Sue Ryder, a Cancer charity apparently. Why is it though that nobody has the courtesy to let you know either way? SO annoying. Anyway I'll stop ranting now before I let out a bad word.

I think it might help my sleep hygiene to move from basement to bedroom. Maybe I could hang rugs, tapestries, & flags on the walls to muffle sound. I want to cocoon. The bed frame is crap, but the mattresses on the floor would be fine. Depending which of the three available corners is most quiet is where I’d place the bed. Fill with pillows & throws. It is too sunny, but that can also be remedied. Shouldn’t be too long before it’s freed up. I’m looking at bedrooms on Pinterest & eating my...

Watching this ep makes me so sad but Halloween season means almost-Christmas season so it's a must see. It's sad knowing that Scully not only lost her daughter Emily that she barely knew but also finds out in 2018 that William isn't Mulder's and belongs to the Cigarette Smoking Man by means of medical r*pe. At the same time it sort of fits with Sci-Fi/Horror as a genre and is to be expected. :(

Topic. Applied to the Co Op in Crookes, and also the Lego Store in Meadowhall, and a job working as a PA (Personal Assistant) for disabled children, well I printed off the application form for that but I might not fill it in and send it back, the job requires a driver ideally, and I don't drive due to disability and I probably never will. I also applied to GAME at Meadowhall last week, and also Pagazzo Lighting in Town, whish me luck, hopefully I'll get interviews soon, I put that I can...

I have a class tonight, Intro to Improv. Next Sunday, I'll be meeting with my group of autistic theatre friends as well. Yay me! Now I'll go back and try to watch an anime!

Topic. My "Work and Enterprise Coach" at Autism Plus sent me a link yesterday to apply for it and I had a punt on the temporary "Seasonal Assistant" position. The only problem with temporary work is that it would probably be a pain in the bum with the Benefits Office, it would take them the duration of the work to do the paper work for the "permitted work" while I'm claiming ESA but if need be I'll try and sort that. Anyway I applied for another job!