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Hello friends! Been a while since i came on here, I've just been trying to fix some life things and everything has been pretty decent, I set out into making some friends and repairing old ones, I branched out across Twitch (A gaming livestream site) and made a bunch of really good friends who always check up on me, So i've been happier. I still struggle to livestream due to social phobia but i don't think that will ever improve i'm just happy i can do it somewhat. Love is a complicated...

I'd like to preface that I was raised in a somewhat middle class family and am quite grateful for all my parents have done for me at this point, as some of my descriptions may make it come off as my family is poor, which isn't the case. I'm just not exactly the greatest with my descriptions, so please, bear with me. --- Christmas for me was exciting. It meant...well... Christmas, and then my Birthday which follows 3 days later (on the 28th). I'd make a list for Santa, and eventually would...

A lot of us aspies have tics. But mine are really annoying. When I get tired, overwhelmed, or just plain scared, all of a sudden I have these uncontrollable spasms all over my body. Either my back twitches wildly, or I look side to side really rapidly, or my arms fly up in the air and shake really fast. It's embarrassing and sort of uncomfortable to do. Having cancer, I've been having more of these and with greater frequency, and stronger spasms than before.

You know those gangsta shout outs, like for instance where people do that sign language thing and yell "I.E.!" or "L.B.C.!" in a really low voice? Well, us aspies need our own gangsta shout out. It should be "I.T.!", and we could actually do the signs for "I" and "T" in ASL. Straight representin'. Oh yeah, and we won't pour out a little of our drink out of respect for a homie. We will organize all our belongings into even numbered groups outta respect for an Aspie.

I am so done with chemo. I have had only 2 infusions, but in that time it has damaged my heart, my lungs, my liver, and my pancreas. I have had a hospital stay because of it. I am young and was healthy a month ago other than lymphoma. Now I have health problems that old ladies have. I want to go straight Tommy Chong and fight this naturally. Not with marijuana. My parents were on drugs when I was a kid and the last thing I want to do is take something they and their friends filled the...

FYI Global warming's over. We are in deep solar minimum. Our summer was recorded as having some of the fewest sunspots on record. I doubt this will be a "Maunder Minimum", but don't say I didn't warn you. My recommendation is get some good boots and a nice coat. It's going to be a cold winter. This is what the Mayan Calendar was all about. It was tracking solar cycles. Yes they wrapped it in superstition, but it has nothing to do with religion. Solar Cycle 24 was hottest on record, with the...

I have cancer and am a single mom. If you could please pray for my daughter and I? I just spent the weekend in the hospital with tiny blood clots in my lungs. I'm ok though

I wrote my last blog post here four years ago. At that time, I was working on myself, improving, and exploring new opportunities in my life, and I reached the personal conclusion that I was likely not actually on the spectrum. Four weird years later--yeah, I'm on the spectrum. At the time, I associated my weirdness with being an "empath", or having "clairs"--clairaudience, claircognizance, clairsentience. All of that is *sort of* the case still, though it's become much weirder than (and...

I think I have a problem (or many), but I don't know how I'm supposed to tell other people about it. Since, if I'm going to tell other people, usually it always sound like a too-simple problem. The only solution is for me to work harder. And i sounded like i'm only whining. Which is actually true; I'm not that hardworking, you may say I'm lazy. I could actually do only simple work, but I got a job which i'm actually not qualified for. It's not impostor syndrome. I'm not qualified, yet i'm...

My beloved cousin whom I grew up with just died. He has a wife and children. He had trouble with drugs in the past and moved away from his hometown. Missed everyone and came back. Not one week later, he shows up dead. This past Saturday, a heroin dealer with a grudge enticed and murdered my cousin. He gave him fentanyl instead of heroin and my cousin died alone. We know it was murder because you don't clean up after yourself after you overdose. The guy took all the evidence and ran. I...

My hair was long and golden. I never really braided it or did it fancy. Just held it back with a headband or a scrunchie. I started chemo about 3 weeks ago. My hair was intact until a few days ago. Then on Friday I was taking a shower and running conditioner thru my hair when I started pulling out clumps of hair the size of baseballs. I began screaming and crying hysterically. My 15 year old daughter helped me clean up the mess and we went down to Great Clips. They shave your head for free...

It feels like the whole world is a world that is separate from yours like all the people and things occurring are separate from your world as if you are the reader of the book who is walking around this universe watching everything happen but unable to participate, seeing what’s about to happen but unable to stop it. No one sees you or acknowledges that you’re there, someone walks into you, but you keep going because you have to keep going otherwise its all going to stop all of a sudden and...

My kid has trichotillomania, this is my experience.

This is my experience of 9/11, being on the autism spectrum. As a kid it was suggested that I might have something called "Aspergers", but it was the 80s, and they believed that Aspergers was only a boy illness. Besides I wasn't "retarded" as everyone told me. So years went by, and my autism was untreated. You can guess how I did socially at school or in any big group of people. But still, she persisted. I remember 9/11. I was waking up to travel to and start my first day at Angell Job...

It's been two years and a half since I last been on Autism Forums. Here's an update if you guys care to look!