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Misty Avich
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- I don't have sensory issues with bright lights, smells, touch or taste. Yes I have a phobia thing of clothing tags but it's more down to OCD than sensory - I am able to lie and understand theory of mind - I can understand body language, face expressions and tone of voice well - I get...
AprilR
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I am always pretending i am normal, and i have friends and a social circle and i can relate to people. I am always pretending i am smarter than i am and i fear someday people will find out the truth. I might ruin my employer's business. I used to have a best friend that i talked everyday but...
Xinyta
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I see my folly. I am afraid of the truth. I am afraid to face myself. I have never in my life have ever let go of anything. I have blamed this. I have blamed that. But I have largely blamed myself for things that I have no control over. Blamed myself for things that never existed. Blamed myself...
Xinyta
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This is a thing I need to admit to myself. No matter how much I despised her, I still took on her traits. I took on: - Being Pessimistic - Despising everyone and everything - Being overall negative about everything - Blaming everyone but myself - Being Selfish - Panicing over simple things that...
AprilR
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To me, love is something more than caring for someone. When someone can see through your soul, understand you intuitively and makes you feel alive. I have lots of memories like this, people that come and go from my life, some were friends, others mere acquaintances. I never let them see me fully...
Xinyta
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I do only remember bits and pieces of what happened. My dad found the woman who would be my stepmother. She came over to see me at my grandparent's house for Christmas. Alot of my dad's family and relatives were there. I probably was 6 going on 7 years old. My stepmother put up a good act...
Xinyta
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I don't remember my birth, like many. Though I lack alot of memory in the few years after that. Most of this account in my earliest years was told to me by relatives on my Dad's side of the family. This is in hopes of keeping a record for myself too. From what I know, I was born in Alton...
Xinyta
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Hate. No one has any idea how strong of an emotion it is. No one thinks about the pain that is caused to create such feelings towards others, let alone towards the self. Experience is a teacher in this way. For someone, like myself, with ASD. This is a world too real to properly describe. To...
Xinyta
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This is the story of how my life happened and how it affected me. Alot of my early years was from what I was told by relatives, more than my own memories. But it is important all the same. THIS ISN'T A PROFESSIONAL NOVEL. Just me putting down my experiences. Hopefully it'll be some help to...
Xinyta
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I've found today, that my mind's negative nature is far more insidious than I gave it credit for. Well played kid me. Well played. What it is, is that my mind constantly looks for something by default to distract me from reality. Since I started limiting my phone, my mental state is now trying...
Misty Avich
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You might be wondering why I describe my feelings of my ASD experience as "shameful", and it has most probably offended you (unintentionally, of course). Being ashamed of having anything "wrong" with you shouldn't be misconstrued as trolling or hurting others. That is not my intention, which is...
AprilR
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I feel awful inside but numb outside. Its like the anxiety and nausea is inside an ice shell. I hope it will pass soon. I said what i meant to my friend and it did not end well. I had to mask but i was too anxious and i let it slip. I am beginning to think she will not call or message me...
Xinyta
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This was oddly a late night thought process last night. Thinking about what it would be like to be a nudist. And if I'd possibly enjoy it. Though I was mildy tipsy and pretty tired from from 3 beers, so that may of influenced it a bit. Though let's get the less safe for work thing out of the...
Xinyta
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My issue with paying attention isn't that I don't. It's just that my focus is in the wrong place. I am really seeing it now, that taking my mental state and what I focus on, in to account. I need to keep my mind active to avoid negatively spiraling. This is especially important when I am alone...
AprilR
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I was apathetic for a few days and a bit depressed. Listening to this song on a mix, i started crying Somehow. Thinking of my own life, my father's and how hard it has been for both of us. Still, there are people who live with a greater loneliness and pain than us. We are one of the luckier...
Xinyta
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There is something that I am now considering. That my misery cycle had a side component to it. Not that it is surprising. But I think I put myself in a infinite loop of autistic burnout because of stress and anxiety. It would explain alot. My mental state being what it's been, fueled my...
Lilacleia16
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Identity-first language says, “I am autistic.” Person-first language says, “I am a person who has autism.” I prefer identity-first language because it invites culture. Person-first language causes shame about one’s disability. Autism is not like an addiction to be shamefully recovered from. It...
AprilR
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I hurt so many people whom tried to help me or love me. I hated myself too much, i did not know i could accept it. I am sorry for everyone who could love someone like me. You are all wonderful people and i hope you can forgive me and forget about me. I am so grateful to you and i wish for your...
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