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AprilR
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AprilR

Well-Known Member, Female, 30

Nevermind i messaged him. I feel like my secret autistic identity will be exposed but atm i don't care. Mar 4, 2021 at 3:02 AM

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Mar 5, 2021 at 3:18 AM
    1. AprilR
      AprilR
      Nevermind i messaged him. I feel like my secret autistic identity will be exposed but atm i don't care.
    2. AprilR
      AprilR
      I am so unsure whether i should message that friend or not. What if he thinks i am flirting?
    3. AprilR
      AprilR
      I have just seen an autistic family friend after years. I wish i could tell him about my realization and ask what he thinks.
    4. AprilR
      AprilR
      Can't wait to discuss my new decision with my therapist. Only 4 days!
    5. AprilR
      AprilR
      I feel too anxious to drive but i don't want to fight with my parents
    6. AprilR
      AprilR
      I see ableist people. They don't know they're ableist..
      1. Butterfly88
        Butterfly88
        Ugh, that stinks!
        Feb 26, 2021
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    7. AprilR
      AprilR
      I just had a phone call from a bank and i understood absolutely nothing from what she said.
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      2. AprilR
        AprilR
        Yeah, i don't take calls from unknown number anyway but this happens with any phone call. I can never make out what the other person is saying, i always ask"what" multiple times and after still not understanding a thing i pretend to understand and finish the call.
        Feb 24, 2021
      3. tree
        tree
        Was it even from a bank in which you actually have an account?
        Feb 24, 2021
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      4. AprilR
        AprilR
        It was, i am pretty sure it wasn't a scam. And i have this problem even when i am talking with friends. I have to be in a very quiet place to understand what people are saying.
        Feb 24, 2021
    8. AprilR
      AprilR
      I have been confused as a minor. I was like.. I am 30.
      1. Trophonius likes this.
      2. Wolfsage
        Wolfsage
        Hard to tell with fairies. Lol.
        Feb 18, 2021
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      3. AprilR
        AprilR
        I mean i guess i should be flattered but people usually also talk to me informally so it's annoying
        Feb 18, 2021
      4. Trophonius
        Trophonius
        I would take that as a compliment.
        Feb 19, 2021
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    9. AprilR
      AprilR
      I don't want to be liked. I want to be respected.
      1. Skittlebisquit likes this.
    10. AprilR
      AprilR
      I feel so much better than yesterday. It's amazing how much difference one day makes.
    11. AprilR
      AprilR
      I cried a lot and got some of the poison out of my system. I hope i can sleep well.
      1. Aspychata likes this.
    12. AprilR
      AprilR
      I pray that i can stop having expectations of people.
      1. Markness likes this.
      2. Markness
        Markness
        Do you get people piling expectations on you?
        Feb 12, 2021
      3. AprilR
        AprilR
        Sometimes. But also i myself have too much expectations of the people around me so i am trying to be more self reliant and not depend on other people.
        Feb 12, 2021
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      4. WolfSpirit
        WolfSpirit
        Good luck with that! I don't think it's possible to completely stop having expectations of people ... it might be more reasonable to simply try to have 'more realistic expectations of people'. which is kinda difficult to do given the complexity of human relationships.
        Feb 12, 2021
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    13. AprilR
      AprilR
      Exercise honestly helps me so much. I still think the same depressing thoughts but care so much less.
      1. Trophonius
        Trophonius
        I've been experiencing the same. Since I started to go to the gym, I feel happier throughout the day. Exercise is a real antidepressant: it promotes the release endorphins that improve the symptoms of depression.
        Feb 9, 2021
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      2. tree
        tree
        Feb 9, 2021
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    14. AprilR
      AprilR
      Nearly had a traffic accident again. I still feel so tired and stressed. I wish i had a driver.
    15. AprilR
      AprilR
      I feel disconnected from humans even autistic ones. I wish i was a cloud or something.
      1. Aspychata likes this.
      2. Markness
        Markness
        You aren’t alone. I feel the same and I actually felt like an NT when I was in a Autism support group. Why a cloud?
        Jan 26, 2021
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      3. AprilR
        AprilR
        Thank you, i sometimes feel the same way, not belonging anywhere. It doesn't have to be a cloud, a plant or even a pet cat would do. I am tired of thinking and planning my life so much, which being a human requires
        Jan 26, 2021
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      4. Wolfsage
        Wolfsage
        Maybe a wolf? Woof!
        Jan 26, 2021
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    16. AprilR
      AprilR
      Everything will be fine in the end.
      1. Loren and Aspychata like this.
    17. AprilR
      AprilR
      Wishing that i could start working and become a good lawyer in 2021
    18. AprilR
      AprilR
      I want to study but i feel like a retard when i do.
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      2. AprilR
        AprilR
        I am sorry if that word made anyone uncomfortable. It was just how i genuinely felt about myself and needed to get it out of my system.
        Jan 8, 2021
      3. Wolfsage
        Wolfsage
        If it helps. I know how you feel. I decided to study biology on my own. Still feels like studying. Just can't get the information in my brain.
        Jan 8, 2021
      4. tree
        tree
        When I was in grad school I had to study a lot. I sort of liked it because it was like being a child, since there was all this stuff I didn't know, but I could work at it to learn it.
        Jan 8, 2021
    19. AprilR
      AprilR
      My parents yelled at me so much i was scared that my dad would beat me. All i can think about is that i have no one other than them.
      1. Owliet
        Owliet
        I hope that you’re ok and safe.
        Jan 5, 2021
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      2. AprilR
        AprilR
        Thank you, i am fine. They were stressed bc of health issues.
        Jan 5, 2021
      3. Wolfsage
        Wolfsage
        Sorry to hear that. Glad your okay.
        Jan 5, 2021
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    20. AprilR
      AprilR
      I have way too much empathy for fictional characters.
      1. SliverOfSand likes this.
      2. Wolfsage
        Wolfsage
        Same.
        Dec 18, 2020
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    Gender:
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    Birthday:
    Jan 2, 1991 (Age: 30)
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