If people weren’t selfish, cruel, and manipulative.
My life would be easier if:
I could believe what I was told and not question everything.
I didn’t need to have tight definitions around words that most are ok with being not well defined.
I wasn’t going through occasional emotional meltdowns that destroy meaningful and important relationships.
I didn’t have a lifetime of abuse and trauma that leads to above emotional meltdowns.
I didn’t have impossible standards for myself that I can never live up to.
I could sense that others cared about me without reading the tea leaves and reacting when the result feels negative.
I am exactly same, I get the worst meltdowns that result in me hurting myself very badly when I feel like others are hurting me or taking away wonderful things
And.my bpd and trauma get a lot worse where I feel like no one wants me.