Continuous Struggle

[Markness]

I am socially isolated even on the web.

 

[tree]

I am socially isolated even on the web.

What examples can you provide to elaborate on that idea?

 

[Rodafina]

I am socially isolated even on the web.

I was also wondering what this means.

 

[Markness]

What examples can you provide to elaborate on that idea?

On Discord servers, I tend to go unnoticed or ignored. I even get rejected.

I get noticed on forums more. Just not always for the best and I often fall to the wayside.

 

[tree]

What would have to happen for you to feel noticed?

 

[Jordy]

On Discord servers, I tend to go unnoticed or ignored. I even get rejected.

Discord sucks. I only use study servers these days.

 

[Markness]

What would have to happen for you to feel noticed?

I am not really sure. Admittedly, I do get sometimes referenced and in a positive manner. But when it comes to big discussions outside of the ones I start, my posts tend to get overshadowed.

 

[tree]

You were hoping or expecting to be a stand out in discussions,
that your comments would shine forth, and you're disappointed
when they don't.

 

[Markness]

I was also wondering what this means.

I am sometimes the odd person out even in online chats and such.

 

[Rodafina]

I am sometimes the odd person out even in online chats and such.

I understand. That sounds like it might inhibit your motivation to engage at all.

 

[Markness]

I understand. That sounds like it might inhibit your motivation to engage at all.

It does and it makes me sometimes want to give up completely.

 

[Markness]

You were hoping or expecting to be a stand out in discussions,
that your comments would shine forth, and you're disappointed
when they don't.

I either talk too much or don’t talk enough.

 

[Thinx]

Yes me too, think it's common for us to not be able to calibrate the right amount of input. Hey it's not a crime. But it can be difficult to cope sometimes.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

I either talk too much or don’t talk enough.

I do the same thing and yes even with women I think are attractive.

 

[Aspychata]

Or l talk when l should have shut-up, because l need to mask a filter so that l don't create unnecessarily drama when l am just imagining a dialog because l obsess over writing an absurd comedy that is a thought thread that continues in my left cortex probably above that ear.

 

[Markness]

I wish I could have a year that starts off hopeful instead of foreboding.

 

[tree]

I wish I could have a year that starts off hopeful instead of foreboding.

You are the one in charge of your feelings.

You aren't at the mercy of mysterious outside forces.
Your feelings develop from what you tell yourself.

 

[Markness]

You are the one in charge of your feelings.

You aren't at the mercy of mysterious outside forces.
Your feelings develop from what you tell yourself.

It’s hard to fight these feelings when you are constantly socially excluded and your efforts tend to not go anywhere.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

It’s hard to fight these feelings when you are constantly socially excluded and your efforts tend to not go anywhere.

I don't know the places you hang out but where I go I don't feel socially excluded.

 

[tree]

It’s hard to fight these feelings when you are constantly socially excluded and your efforts tend to not go anywhere.

Notice what you're telling yourself.

*it's hard*
But is it impossible??

*constantly socially excluded*
Really?
I thought you just went to some concert or whatever, that 65 thing with somebody.

*efforts tend to not go anywhere*
What is it you are expecting?