Markness

For some reason you keep building up stuff like this, expecting to "find happiness" in social *events.*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoJ3AuYQHlY

Are you on any medication for depression/anxiety?

I am on fluoxetine.

Instead of calling it a waste, you could try thinking of it as an investment.

Only thing to do would be hang out with gaming friends & talk about a day where Dark Souls kicked your ass. I'm sure everyone else has had a rough go of it too; some games are difficult!

I managed to finally break down the wall I kept hitting and hurting my hands with! However, I am going to take a LONG Dark Souls break.

Sorry you had that. I did once - felt close to death. I’ll never get food from fast food places again. Won’t risk it.

@Markness Was it food from some commercial establishment? Or home made? Was it same kind of food you guys normally eat ? Or something new?

My mother buys whole roast chickens from HEB constantly and this particular one was bad.

Have you read The Science Of Getting Rich by Wallace Wattles? It's not just about being rich in money, but about how to get anything you want. It's the basis of much of today's self help milieu. It's a free pdf. Google it.

Well, outlast it. When the devil whispers in your ear, "You're not strong enough to withstand the storm--"
reply "at least I didn't lose my golden fiddle to a hillbilly from Georgia!"

You learn to march to the beat of your own drum. Accepting that it's unlikely that we "fit in" much of anywhere. And that it may not matter as much as you perceive.

https://www.bustle.com/wellness/reasons-you-feel-like-you-dont-fit-in-what-to-do-about-it ; https://socialpronow.com/blog/not-fitting-in/

You were doing pretty good there for a little, it looked like, and then hit a snag--I'd say either go back and keep keeping on (and not let them run you out), or start looking around for more people as well in some more in-person gatherings

How so?

The former is passive aggressive to me and the latter has excommunicated me.

That got me interested in reading about how to deal with passive aggressive people...

I better look this up before I forget!

@Streetwise, yeah kids online have been referring to parents as 'rents' for some time; and yes, there is the musical (which I've never seen.)

Yes, urban dictionary definitions frequently are rude /sexually oriented.

Same :(

Your second brain, is operating you at the moment, psychologists call panic the 2nd brain because it encompasses kidneys, the digestive tract, the lungs, the heart, the brain, the urinary tract, but it acts differently from when you are not panicking, the second brain cannot perceive a lack of danger

Maybe they’re just culturally or socially ignorant… there are a lot like this where I live too.

It's relative what they consider intellectual is different from what you consider intellectual

People have to pay to take out ordinary tangible books???

Oh, no. I thought renting would have the same connotation as checking out items from the library.

Rent is when you pay to use. Here the library in the next county charges people to take out books....if they don't live in that county.

You could go in a hazmat suit. Being cautious, and looking like you're doing a cosplay. Double bubble.