Markness

I've noticed that.

Me too :( It’s most likely not real though. You have to have faith in the fact that there are people who really care about you.

In general? Or was that particular to today ?

Today after I found out I missed some assignments and emails as well as dropped low in my checkings. I am filing out my W2.

In the exact same club if I had less finances I couldn't make a free phone call on my mobile phone

@tree I talked to the teacher and it turns out the emails we’re going elsewhere in my college email account than where I thought they should go.

The "like" is for finding out by talking to the teacher.

Seek out professional help if you are seriously thinking of ending it all, but we are still here for you.

Message me if you think it might help… but yes, definitely contact a professional, especially if you’re thinking about suicide. But if you’re having anxiety about death in general, that’s probably something to bring up to a therapist. I have a death phobia too and it’s not easy to deal with :(

I know i'm not the picture of good mental health, but if I can make it this far, so can you, friend. Hang in there.

I knew in my gut that my comment would trigger that sort of response. I'm not saying females can't be friends with females. I just read these random acts of kindness as having more of a romantic undertone. And yes - I know not everyone is hetero, but in the western world nearly 90% of each gender is hetero. And yes, I know - apparently there's more than 2 genders.

Sorry if the tone seems off. I just feel like I need to cover my back here to avoid causing any further confusion or conflict.

I didn't think of the gesture of gifting V.I.P. memberships as romantic, at all. Still don't.

That’s happened to me before lol

Is it a M/W class? Or M/W/F? Or what?

M/W

What flavor? (Also watch out about chewables. Sometimes they have sweeteners in them that can be laxative.)

Lemon. Hmmm…maybe that’s partly why I’ve had to use the toilet a lot lately?

I'm sorry

Thank you

Is that unusual for you?

It is since I normally had to swallow stuff whole.

The D I have is very small. Gel caps. 2000IU.

You seem to be bullying yourself these days.

My therapist has told me that before.

Those traumas and judgements of others can become internalised and then start repeating themselves. I still have parental judgements from many years ago running through my head daily.

Missed social opportunity and opted for the default of worrying, hesitancy and avoidance?

I was also at work.

That's what I had in mind when I said "depends on the circumstances." Work is not a social playground. Probably there could have been an appropriately phrased comment/compliment, though.

It’s inspired by a Swans album title.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/White_Light_from_the_Mouth_of_Infinity

That’s the one! If you are new to their music, start there! Also, to answer a previous question you asked me, Young God I got from Swans.

Well metal is often called "dad rock" so maybe it's sincere?

Also, hard to tell nuance by text. This is why I don't text much (apart from my phone being a pain to use.) I mean what else was he to text in reply?
Best not to think abt. this stuff as it is meaningless.

@BrokenBoy He tends to not like distorted music but I try to show him that just because something is distorted doesn’t mean it’s not musical.

@Gerontius I suppose so.

Because clinical depression is a beast and you need to start taking better care of yourself.

https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/panic-attacks/is-a-feeling-of-dread-a-sign-of-something-more-serious/

I read the article. Depression follows me around and my head as well as throat feel stuffy these days.

That makes sense. I used to have the classic *here I am in class, it's time for the test, and I haven't been to class in weeks.* or *the paper is due on Monday, it's Friday now and I haven't done any research....* Dreams can be pictures of what concerns us. Sometimes disguised. Sometimes, not so much.

I sometimes get nightmares that I am still in high school while also still working or I am far away from work and I need to drive there but the time window is small.

I love foxes!!

No recess