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As I always do at the beginning of "Therapy Weeks", I'm debating on whether I should bring up autism. I also usually get too afraid to, and refer to the giant list of stuff I wanted to bring up since last year. It feels like I'm doing myself a disservice, by not utilizing the time I have to talk about what I want to. It kinda feels like I'm lying, in a way? Lying to my therapist, too. To make myself feel better, I'll organize all my documents into a folder. I also got another bad headache...

A big improvement in reducing iPad time. The ultimate goal is still 2-3 hours iPad time daily with one day completely off the iPad a week. It helps the weather had been nice some days last week. I’ve also been waiting to check social media after working on my important papers first. Continuing to cut off iPad time @ 5pm. I feel better in general, although some days are suck. Things might never get better, but they can always get worse. I have coping skills, for better & worse.

So these past couple days have been interesting, to say the least. I've never known myself to have anger issues, but I've noticed that I get annoyed very quickly in situations that wouldn't bother me before. Other kids asking questions in class, a couple of kids talking over the teacher/when they aren't supposed to. Mainly to do with talking, I guess. I noticed that I repeated "shut up" a lot in my head, but I didn't say it out loud. Maybe I'm too stressed? I can't figure out how though. But...

I have moved this post to my external blog, Autlanders: Thriving Outside of the Box

bug regatta Created by treebranch1 Title & Idea bug regatta is supposed to mean that the insects are the boats. The way some of these read almost sounds like....boat models. But it's meant to be actual insects, used as boats. I was thinking, for a split second, of one individual who uses generatorland and his penchant for expanding things. Making things big. Blowing up balloon images. And I thought--- Insects. And Large. Two ideas next to each other. So, some of the appeal of this was...

another emeto warning! So I get nauseous a lot. It's indiscriminatory. I could be eating, drinking something, smelling something, standing still (lol), and I'm nauseous. It sucks, because I did ask my doctor about it beforehand, and she gave me meds for it, but they gave me horrible headaches. So out of fear, I flushed them. Mainly because they tasted like candy, and I didn't want to be tempted. But now I don't know what to do. Is it the food I eat? Is it olfactory input? I just don't know!...

So, the guy and I have exchanged a few more messages. He's not sure yet whether their site was hacked or whether the automatic renewal for the domain name failed. He thought the site was operational. Had me test it. It wasn't. ==== I wrote out some more material for a thing I'm working on. Either it will eventually get posted on generatorland, or I will get a relative to develop a program I can use privately. These most recent blog entries are not so much "news" that I expect anyone to be...

Hey People! This is Mike again. Yesterday was a tough day. Was real anxious throughout the day, really feeling my mom's absence. At one point, I even hallucinated her in the house talking to my nephew but it was my dad talking to my nephew. I haven't had the best couple of weeks. I miss my mom, I miss my gf, I find it hard to maintain interest in things, I wrecked my car Sat.night, I can't get much play from the ladies online or IRL, and basically, right now Life Sucks. If i thought it would...

The guy says the place has been hacked. He wrote back to me from his facebook account. He also has posted a notice on facebook and on his twitter saying that the site was hacked and they are working to get it back under control. I came across a blog by a username I recognize. And he/she has links to the material he/she has produced. Those links work, but the general link in the blog to the site just goes to a blank white page with a baby blue line/band at the top. Apparently the domain...

The one thing i have never liked about myself is my anger, it's insane. I get frustrated really fast, it takes me every fiber of my being to slow it down. Sometimes it comes over from not understanding what's happening, it can come off from social groups. It can come off from myself, as i am extremely hard on myself with everything and every little thing. Other times, it's because people just flat out ignore me. And it sucks when it's right dead smack in your face and your just expected to...

For less than 18 dollars a year, the site I have been using could renew their domain name. One of the co-owners has a twitter account that refers to the site. What's the point of that if nobody bothers to renew the domain name? I don't want to resort to the primitive technique of writing out phrases on paper or index cards, putting them in containers and drawing them out like fortunes or lottery ticket winners.

There's a lot of ways this applies in my life. For example, wearing a binder. I'm dysphoric without it, and dysphoric with it. More aware of my chest, constantly feeling it to see if I've "slipped" and have to adjust. Another instance is in school work I have to do. The teacher assigned a podcast and some questions to answer. Of course, the first thing I do is look up a transcription, but... It's not punctuated, in a weird font, and is in big blocks of text. I emailed the teacher about any...

emeto warning! I know some people don't want to read about nausea and what comes with it, so this is a warning! So, I have frequent headaches. Often enough that I usually decline meds for it in fear of becoming dependent/tolerant of it. However, not frequently enough to really tie it down to one thing. They usually happen after long, loud, social days, but other times it can happen after I change the cat's litter. Would this be a kind of sensory overload, or just connected to heightened...

Bookshop Created by treebranch1 This link doesn't work. That was fast. The site worked just long enough for me to click a couple items, see that the place was running, post the Bookshop thing I had made. It has 43,008 results...or would have if the site were operational. But, it's not. Again. It's like when Skinner gave the pigeons the corn, every now and then. Intermittent Reinforcement.

More than half of this day, Easter 2019, generatorland was unusable. Said the Domain Name was expired. Clicking linked to you...nowhere...... In the late afternoon I was looking at facebook, saw a post from generatorland put up less than an hour ago. A big rabbit with the slogan "BE ALERT Don't get HURT! There was a link to the site. I clicked it, it actually went there. Since the place was functional, I posted this: Bookshop Created by treebranch1 I finished it today before the...