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Okay, I prayed this evening that I wish God gives my husband friends.. And when he went to the usual prayer hall after sunset, I noticed he doesn't come back yet.. usually he already home after 30-40 minutes. Then we will go to the usual stall to have our dinner (he complained he's already bored with the menu there, but doesn't want to try new place). I was worried if something bad happened to him, like accident. I cant call him since he doesn't bring his phone. Or, that he finally got...

This post is saying what I am feeling:Men expect women to take all the decisions: What to wear, what to eat, why to buy - even where to live | Daily Mail Online Well, I'm not the dominant-type woman, I prefer to feel safe with someone reliable. And I think Aspies are like that too - except maybe it feels a bit different. In my culture, husbands usually the one who are being reliable about almost everything. Of course they discuss with their partners too. Like house to buy, car to purchase,...

Celebrity Atomic Particles Created by treebranch1 I made this as a test of function of the site because nothing of my own that I put in the slots would run, even though there were no flaws in what I entered. One phrase in the first slot, a list in the second, and one phrase in the 3rd. Wdn't run. I cut the list down to 10 items. Wdn't run. I substituted one of the site's lists. Wdn't run. I entered 2 more of the site's lists, with a feeling of *this is stupid/pointless/meaningless/not...

Tonight we were in an accident. My daughter was checked out at the hospital, but everyone is okay. A truck ran a red light and plowed into us, hitting her door. My poor daughter had to get a CT scan and an Xray tonight. Has a little black eye, but she's doing great. They were threatening to put her in a neck brace for 2 weeks, and she was terrified all the kids would make fun of her. Dr said in the end she didn't need it. She was so happy! To make her feel better, at the hospital I...

When the general public (which is my floppy term for people who know about the existence of autism but not too much about what it means) thinks about stimming in autism, most will probably come up with rocking, or hand flapping and the like, maybe also audible stims if they have ever been on a long flight with an autistic individual that happens to partially stim vocally. I believe most who have not gotten to know autistic people more closely will not think of more subtle ways of stimming or...

I am hoping that today's Doctor appointment will be another way out of this nightmare. I don't ever want another drop of toxic sludge injected into my chest. I don't want to lie still while inflicting myself with Hiroshima-style radiation burns. It keeps me up every night. I hardly sleep anymore. The side effects are worse than the cancer, because before, I was in extreme pain, but I got around town on the bus and was very self sufficient. Now, I can't even walk down the block without...

Okay this may seem too radical to be posted here, but this is my blog so anyway. Aspie/autism is okay and such, but the problem appears in marriage. In a marriage, the ASD will live with the partner 24/7. So it's impossible to mask. And another thing is, the ASD subconsciously actually want a caregiver or a mom who will do everything for the ASD. Processing partner? You should hire somebody else. It's irrational to expect your marriage partner to be your mom 24/7, and also without any...

Yesterday I saw this array of material. The multiple "prisma" lists irritated me. It is a listing of various color names. I had already seen the percentage generator yesterday. It is a listing of percentages. The phrase "girl eating food" made me think of "Eats shoots and leaves". With difference emphasis/punctuation, "girl eating food" could be something other than a description of a female ingesting nutritive items. I figured I could put together a 'food attacks girl' thing pretty...

I'm so happy I did. It was only $10, and now the site is ad free. I was having so much trouble with overstimulation from all the videos and ads to the point that it made this site not fun anymore. I'm so happy. It's like the silence of the forest at night, except for my eyes.

My family will be heartbroken, and my daughter will wrongly think I'm giving up on her, but I've decided to quit chemo. I cannot do it anymore. It makes me so sick and weak. I fear it will kill me faster than any cancer. I want to at least try the natural stuff for one year and see how I progress. I'm only stage 1 or 2 so I'm willing to do that. I just can't wither away. I've only been on Chemo since August, and already I look 5-10 years older, I have heart, kidney, and liver problems...

I've been net-searching research fellow/postdoc/scientist jobs in my small developing country in my husband specialization to no avail. This country doesn't have that many research institutes, let alone any in his field. Seriously, there's no research job in this country for post-phd except for lecturers and maybe only some postdoc. Furthermore, maybe those jobs need to be applied or 'created' ad-hoc-ly; means we need to meet some insider and ask for jobs. Problem is, we are not good...

He picked me up at work today, eventhough he was having headache and gone home earlier. We watched a movie about the series he loves on his phone. Even though he said he cant make a move about finding job or contacting other people, he seems happy to watch the movie. Then he goes to daily prayer at a nearby hall as always. He bought me a fresh apple juice at a stall he always frequent. He bought food for himself because i am already full. He told me that there will be an eating gathering...

He cannot fall into a deep sleep for weeks now. Sleep for about 1 hour, then suddenly wakes up from midnite until 3,4 am. After that also, not falling into a deep sleep. So, the next morning he will be depressed and have headache, also bad mood. Cannot do anything. Maybe this is a vicious cycle. He cannot sleep maybe because of depression; about many things: no fulfilling job, no teammate, no friend, nobody to talk to, nowhere to go without being anxious because of stuttering and...

Title:Your PURPLE Aesthetic Descriptor: what it says about you... Button: all about you Your PURPLE Aesthetic Created by treebranch1 Format: Your choice of the + modifier + purple + item + embodies your + quality +punctuation +afterwords. Results = 724,500 Examples of results: Your choice of the distinctly purple palm tree embodies your grace. But you knew that, right? Your choice of the distinctly purple kitchen sink embodies your desperation. Your choice of the amazing purple...