I believe Everything happens for a reason. If i lose a friend it was meant to happen.
I was masking with her a lot, trying to overcome my anxiety about unexpected situations. But she thrives on unexpected situations and seeks them out, even dangerous ones. I am too stressed to try to fit in with her any longer. I hope she has a good life whatever she does. But i don't feel safe with her any longer. I cant be myself with her. And she does not see my efforts of trying to fit in with her. Maybe she does not know me and accept me as myself. I am not sure of that. I never told her about my autism, but about my anxiety and depression.
I don't have any friends left if she stops talking to me. And it scares me a little, but maybe this is for the best. I was sometimes nervous and on edge when i was with her.
From now on i will try to find like minded friends. I am hoping to come across introverted people who are more like me. And if i cannot find them, be happy and feel safe in my own skin. That is my biggest wish
I was masking with her a lot, trying to overcome my anxiety about unexpected situations. But she thrives on unexpected situations and seeks them out, even dangerous ones. I am too stressed to try to fit in with her any longer. I hope she has a good life whatever she does. But i don't feel safe with her any longer. I cant be myself with her. And she does not see my efforts of trying to fit in with her. Maybe she does not know me and accept me as myself. I am not sure of that. I never told her about my autism, but about my anxiety and depression.
I don't have any friends left if she stops talking to me. And it scares me a little, but maybe this is for the best. I was sometimes nervous and on edge when i was with her.
From now on i will try to find like minded friends. I am hoping to come across introverted people who are more like me. And if i cannot find them, be happy and feel safe in my own skin. That is my biggest wish
