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An article in which the author does an amazing job of describing 51 personality traits that make her autistic.

Next step, get below 3 hours iPad time daily. This has been easier since the weather is nice now. Continuing to cut off iPad time at 5pm or before daily.

Something weird happened today. I felt bad because I continuosly got a problem wrong in math, which carried over into science. We were discussing possible group projects, and I had gone nonverbal. Hearing everyone talk about the project made me a bit angry, which manifested into a physical symptom? The bottom half of my legs went weird, not like pins-and-needles, and not numb, but something else unpleasant. I also had therapy today, and I went over that and how I don't usually know what I'm...

I've been really depressed and emotional lately, due to a multitude of factors. It's hard to define them all here, but I'll try: - working on CPTSD recovery, which involves a lot of wading around in traumatic memories - getting constantly triggered on accident by my boyfriend - getting sensory overload/overwhelmed on accident by my boyfriend - my boyfriend having emotional needs I can't even begin to fulfill when I'm in this state - flashbacks, oh god, flashbacks - getting hypervigilant and...

Right now you are reading these words. That means you are still here. Good job. You have made it through a lot to get here. You remember probably. All that bad stuff that happened; things most people don't go through, dark moments were you can see no light. You made it through everything to get to this point, reading this comment. It was no easy task. What have you gone through to get here? Think of everything that has happened to you. God knows the stuff you had to put up with from yourself...

Something happened today that seems very insignificant, and I suppose it it. My phone screen cracked. Hadn't dropped it, just hit it with the metal part of the seatbelt. I had never previously broken a phone screen before, and it's taking a bit of getting used to. Only thing is, it sent me into a shutdown, I think. I was suddenly aware of how "naked" I was (I had not been wearing long sleeves/a jacket, and I didn't have my earbuds), and I was very afraid. My brain became stuck, and I...

1) nephew letter 2) self-hypnosis 3) clean Part Two TBD... 1) nephew letter is something family members asked me to write. 2) self-hypnosis is for noise sensitivity & mindfulness meditation. 3) abc = always be cleaning/ prep for visiting family member.

Looking at other people's material is useful to me. I see what works and what doesn't. For example this result> "Your character is from the UFO (1997-1999) theme and is Messy. They are a(n) Calligrapher and they enjoy Amateur Astronomy" from> StackPath Good details. but. Could be improved by attaching the correct article to occupation. Like this: a Calligrapher, an Artist. And lose the vague pronoun 'they'. Instead of: "They are a(n) Calligrapher and they enjoy Amateur Astronomy" I...

As I always do at the beginning of "Therapy Weeks", I'm debating on whether I should bring up autism. I also usually get too afraid to, and refer to the giant list of stuff I wanted to bring up since last year. It feels like I'm doing myself a disservice, by not utilizing the time I have to talk about what I want to. It kinda feels like I'm lying, in a way? Lying to my therapist, too. To make myself feel better, I'll organize all my documents into a folder. I also got another bad headache...

A big improvement in reducing iPad time. The ultimate goal is still 2-3 hours iPad time daily with one day completely off the iPad a week. It helps the weather had been nice some days last week. I’ve also been waiting to check social media after working on my important papers first. Continuing to cut off iPad time @ 5pm. I feel better in general, although some days are suck. Things might never get better, but they can always get worse. I have coping skills, for better & worse.

So these past couple days have been interesting, to say the least. I've never known myself to have anger issues, but I've noticed that I get annoyed very quickly in situations that wouldn't bother me before. Other kids asking questions in class, a couple of kids talking over the teacher/when they aren't supposed to. Mainly to do with talking, I guess. I noticed that I repeated "shut up" a lot in my head, but I didn't say it out loud. Maybe I'm too stressed? I can't figure out how though. But...

I have moved this post to my external blog, Autlanders: Thriving Outside of the Box

bug regatta Created by treebranch1 Title & Idea bug regatta is supposed to mean that the insects are the boats. The way some of these read almost sounds like....boat models. But it's meant to be actual insects, used as boats. I was thinking, for a split second, of one individual who uses generatorland and his penchant for expanding things. Making things big. Blowing up balloon images. And I thought--- Insects. And Large. Two ideas next to each other. So, some of the appeal of this was...

another emeto warning! So I get nauseous a lot. It's indiscriminatory. I could be eating, drinking something, smelling something, standing still (lol), and I'm nauseous. It sucks, because I did ask my doctor about it beforehand, and she gave me meds for it, but they gave me horrible headaches. So out of fear, I flushed them. Mainly because they tasted like candy, and I didn't want to be tempted. But now I don't know what to do. Is it the food I eat? Is it olfactory input? I just don't know!...

So, the guy and I have exchanged a few more messages. He's not sure yet whether their site was hacked or whether the automatic renewal for the domain name failed. He thought the site was operational. Had me test it. It wasn't. ==== I wrote out some more material for a thing I'm working on. Either it will eventually get posted on generatorland, or I will get a relative to develop a program I can use privately. These most recent blog entries are not so much "news" that I expect anyone to be...