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On my lunch break on Tuesday as I'm walking to the park to sit by the lake, a man on an electric scooter with his hoodie up approaches me and asks if I smoke, and then if I smoked weed. He queried how much I buy it for, then claimed he'd sell it for cheaper. Strange turn of events - that I started smoking months back and was worried I wouldn't have many contacts. Now I have more contacts than I've ever had at any point in my 17 odd years with weed. On Tuesday after work I went staffing up...

Got to make up 3 hours overtime so I came in 2 hours early today. I drove past our old house, got the mail and checked everything was in order. Took less than a minute then I drove off to work. Used up a quarter of a tank and figured I'd see if the local petrol station was open. It was, and there were only 2 cars on the forecourt, but as I slowed up I noticed plastic covers on all the petrol pumps indicating they had none. I filled up the car on Friday which was day one of the panic buying....

Tuesday was another smoke free day. After work I met with Henry who lives in March. He works at a Category A prison in March. I find his job fascinating and usually we spend the whole time chatting about it. He's got a week off due to being assaulted by one of the prisoners. We went to his house share for a bit and then got dinner. The restaurant was very busy but I didn't mind as it meant we were there chatting for a few hours. Yesterday I got rear ended on the way to work. Thankfully it...

*Trigger Warning!* As my planned Novena to Our Lady of the Holy Rosary for Autism Awareness and many other Autistic issues approaches, I have been considering adding an ending of ABA Treatment to the list of petitions in this Rosary Novena. But before I do, I want to take a closer look at ABA, and get a fuller understanding of what it really is before passing judgment on it. Pretty much 100% of what I’ve heard about ABA was bad, and it seemed to be based off of philosophies totally...

Today we'll talk about Spirit Island, one of the biggest and best of them all.

Self care seems out of reach sometimes at least the way its portrayed to me. Self care is trips across the world and new dresses. Self care is spa days and afternoon naps. Self care is a glass of wine and therapy appointment. I did none of that. I stayed up all night worried about my health and the future and my legs just kept bothering me. Itching and tingling . I zoned out not really caring about the show I was watching tossing and turning trying to find comfort in the discomfort. Then...

4 day weekend is on the horizon. Yesterday was my first weed free day since I started again. Figured I should attempt smoking on the weekends only again. It'd be good to save money and use less weed. Of course, even when I only smoked on weekends, I made exceptions for when I booked holiday off work. A 4 day weekend will probably leave me feeling a little fried, so I should try and keep busy in order to avoid smoking too much. In truth, last weekend felt a little too busy for my liking....

I can already tell that the word limit on this blog will be an issue. Quite a lot happened in recent days. Friday I had root canal. Unpleasant as ever. Similar to my last one – I had 3 injections and was still in a lot of pain during the procedure. When I got to work Tom said I was late and couldn’t take as long a lunch. I had made up more than enough time in overtime to earn a full lunch break but I didn’t fight my corner or attempt to tell him he was wrong. It was a short shift anyway....

BGM - It's been an interesting few days and I've bumped into more people that I hadn't seen in a long time. On Friday I met with Jack and we went to McDonald's. We watched a bit of a Tom Segura stand up special whilst we ate, then headed back to Wilburton where he lives. We had a smoke and chill up at the rec (park) in the village, chatting about games and such like. I've often wondered if Jack is on the spectrum or has ADHD. His behaviour, incredible memory for video game facts and the...

I tried to look into the emotion behind my daily aches and pains. I concluded it must be fear. This set me off in tears as I thought to myself - I am always afraid. Ever since I started seeing Dr's about my constant pains and they attempted to reassure me that it was 'just anxiety'. I was still afraid however. In fact, every time I get a pain - I am afraid. I look to my how I live my life and I'm scared of people, scared of losing my job, of my family judging me, of my health, my diet, my...

Several people have commented on the "romance" of living on a sailboat. I always assume they mean "romance" in the sense of Hemmingway, not Romance<3 <3 <3 in the sense of a Harlequin novel. Yes, there is some adventure but often living on a boat is just hard work. It certainly is not convenient. To go to the store, for example, we get in our 8 foot dinghy and motor (electric motor) about 1k to the nearest dock. Easy peasy. Except an 8 foot dinghy sides are only about 10" above the...

Had an early night as I was shattered on Tuesday. Woke up at 5am. Figured I'd wake and bake because work doesn't start for 3.5 hours. I went into the garden and the first slither of light was visible on the horizon. Not long after I'd sparked up I heard a meow from the darkness. I went over to investigate the edge of the garden and a little black cat came out. I could barely make out any detail other than a bell on it's collar as it moved. Really affectionate little thing. I made a fuss of...