poorlittlefish
Active Member
I truly don't get it. I've long given up on expecting any kind of support or even acknowledgement from my family, but at work I matter to absolutely nobody either. I'm always asking my team if they are OK, but no-one ever asks me. All I hear about is how so-and-so has it so tough because their journey to work is so long or how they're worried about so-and-so because they're suffering from depression. My journey is twice as long!
One day recently, when I'd listened to all I could stand about how bad others have it I said I was, in fact, feeling so down that I could jump off a cliff. Still no-one has asked how I am, no-one has expressed any concern. I watch my boss bending over backwards to give someone all the flexibility in their hours they've asked for, but, despite being the only one whose job does not impact others, all I got told to anything and everything was no. I feel so let down; I don't even know the way to describe it. I stay because local jobs are non-existent and I like the environment, but I just don't understand why absolutely nobody gives a cr*p about me. People seem to think I have no emotion, that I can just take everything they throw at me, so if I try saying I feel awful people don't seem to believe me.
Since my divorce I've had no-one whatsoever to talk to. I have no friends and any men I date (once) say they'd like to see me again then reject me for someone else. I don't really know why I'm writing this - I suppose just to pretend I'm not alone.
One day recently, when I'd listened to all I could stand about how bad others have it I said I was, in fact, feeling so down that I could jump off a cliff. Still no-one has asked how I am, no-one has expressed any concern. I watch my boss bending over backwards to give someone all the flexibility in their hours they've asked for, but, despite being the only one whose job does not impact others, all I got told to anything and everything was no. I feel so let down; I don't even know the way to describe it. I stay because local jobs are non-existent and I like the environment, but I just don't understand why absolutely nobody gives a cr*p about me. People seem to think I have no emotion, that I can just take everything they throw at me, so if I try saying I feel awful people don't seem to believe me.
Since my divorce I've had no-one whatsoever to talk to. I have no friends and any men I date (once) say they'd like to see me again then reject me for someone else. I don't really know why I'm writing this - I suppose just to pretend I'm not alone.