RavensWatch
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Hi all!
I am for now (at forty-eight years old), self diagnosed.
I have an appointment in the new year to talk to my doctor and get a referral to get assessed/tested. So here are some of my main "symptoms": Great difficulty in connecting with people I have had no friend since my dear friend past away four years ago), cannot read people (hopeless with this really), while I do not get adults at all I connect with kids okay and read animals exceptionally well (can also calm them), I am addicted to finding information and learning, I automatically analyze everything, have a blank stare while thinking/analyzing that makes others concerned, highly honest and straight forward (often to my own detriment), do not do small talk, have spent my lifetime feeling like an alien that has been stranded on the wrong planet, I get completely absorbed in things of interest (to an obsessive level), have trouble focusing on things that do not capture my interest, have a lot of trouble dealing with my own emotions, clumsy (dropping things/spilling things, banging into things), lots of sleep troubles, very slow metabolizer (including problems with caffeine and theobromine metabolizing, very drug/supplement sensitive), have a habit of spinning in circles (office chairs are awesome for this) -since childhood, very particular about foods, chronic oversharer (trying to connect), unintentionally hijack conversations (assuming others will readily contribute when they have something to), really confused by people pretending to be nice or interested when they are not, always stressed and exhausted by having visitors in my home, extensively plan everything, I need a lot of recharge time, I HATE surprises, dislike crowded malls, restaurants, movie theatres etc., stressed by bright colours and bright lights, low tolerance for any high pitched sounds, mind is ALWAYS thinking, constantly looking to understand myself better and be understood, rescued a lot of stray animals as a kid (even delivered newspapers with a pack of stray dogs), have what feels like an OCD for researching information (products, companies, medical, psychology, pretty much anything that enters my mind), love books, gain comfort from knowing what to expect (transitions are stressful), have always related to males better (feel like I have a male brain), compulsively trying to find solutions for me and others (others apparently do not appreciate this), I'm a perfectionist (quite distressed when I cannot do something to the best of my abilities), do not respect people just because of a "Title", very literal, accurate information and communication are a big deal to me, very serious by nature, previous diagnosis of anxiety and bipolar disorder (both extinguished by dropping caffeine and theobromine from my diet), I love learning but am really struggling to get through my program (returned to school), use to drink to tolerate social settings, very different than any of my relatives (oddball), loner through school (considered aloof by others), mostly monotone voice, have non-diabetic low blood sugar issues (reactive hypoglycemia), default to black and white thinking, strong pattern recognition, habitually reading licence plates etc... My four year old son is very similar to me; that is how I ended up learning about the "symptoms" in the first place. We both also have ADHD symptoms created by chronic sleep issues.
I am hoping to have better luck connecting or relating to people on this site than I do in the real world.
I am for now (at forty-eight years old), self diagnosed.
I have an appointment in the new year to talk to my doctor and get a referral to get assessed/tested. So here are some of my main "symptoms": Great difficulty in connecting with people I have had no friend since my dear friend past away four years ago), cannot read people (hopeless with this really), while I do not get adults at all I connect with kids okay and read animals exceptionally well (can also calm them), I am addicted to finding information and learning, I automatically analyze everything, have a blank stare while thinking/analyzing that makes others concerned, highly honest and straight forward (often to my own detriment), do not do small talk, have spent my lifetime feeling like an alien that has been stranded on the wrong planet, I get completely absorbed in things of interest (to an obsessive level), have trouble focusing on things that do not capture my interest, have a lot of trouble dealing with my own emotions, clumsy (dropping things/spilling things, banging into things), lots of sleep troubles, very slow metabolizer (including problems with caffeine and theobromine metabolizing, very drug/supplement sensitive), have a habit of spinning in circles (office chairs are awesome for this) -since childhood, very particular about foods, chronic oversharer (trying to connect), unintentionally hijack conversations (assuming others will readily contribute when they have something to), really confused by people pretending to be nice or interested when they are not, always stressed and exhausted by having visitors in my home, extensively plan everything, I need a lot of recharge time, I HATE surprises, dislike crowded malls, restaurants, movie theatres etc., stressed by bright colours and bright lights, low tolerance for any high pitched sounds, mind is ALWAYS thinking, constantly looking to understand myself better and be understood, rescued a lot of stray animals as a kid (even delivered newspapers with a pack of stray dogs), have what feels like an OCD for researching information (products, companies, medical, psychology, pretty much anything that enters my mind), love books, gain comfort from knowing what to expect (transitions are stressful), have always related to males better (feel like I have a male brain), compulsively trying to find solutions for me and others (others apparently do not appreciate this), I'm a perfectionist (quite distressed when I cannot do something to the best of my abilities), do not respect people just because of a "Title", very literal, accurate information and communication are a big deal to me, very serious by nature, previous diagnosis of anxiety and bipolar disorder (both extinguished by dropping caffeine and theobromine from my diet), I love learning but am really struggling to get through my program (returned to school), use to drink to tolerate social settings, very different than any of my relatives (oddball), loner through school (considered aloof by others), mostly monotone voice, have non-diabetic low blood sugar issues (reactive hypoglycemia), default to black and white thinking, strong pattern recognition, habitually reading licence plates etc... My four year old son is very similar to me; that is how I ended up learning about the "symptoms" in the first place. We both also have ADHD symptoms created by chronic sleep issues.
I am hoping to have better luck connecting or relating to people on this site than I do in the real world.
, male. At this point I'm self-diagnosed on the various tests that are available on-line. The tests so far are saying "very likely" and "may be worth getting professionally assessed"etc. A professional diagnosis is in progress, but I'm needing to do A LOT of reflecting and recollection on my past and even my present. 
