I've kept a journal since I was about 11 or 12. I hadn't read through the older ones in years but was prompted to do so today after I realized my Mom and I had different memories relating to a certain event in my childhood. Turns out I was mostly right regarding the memory but reading through those journals made me realize a few things:
1) God, I was an idiot back then! Just completely devoid of social ability and skill...also, my handwriting and grammar sucked.
2) I wasn't very likable. I mean, I was stubborn, socially inept, and thought I knew everything.
3) I was obsessed with getting revenge on my bullies. I talked about it constantly!
4) I was a horny little thing...Granted I was just discovering my sexuality and going through puberty, but page after page about my crushes on these boys, whom I've now completely forgotten about. I had the nerve to write in one entry that I had been in love "many times." And every time I would go up to the kid after having stared at and followed him around for months, confess my love, and make a complete fool of myself because...why not?
Of course, I think a lot of this is related to my potential autism. There was even a meeting with my teachers to discuss how to accommodate my Asperger's (I had forgotten this). So as much as I found my younger self to be absolutely annoying, it's hard not to feel compassion and a little sadness for what I was going through and for everything I now know was lying ahead.
When you think about your younger self, do you want to give yourself a hug, a smack in the back of the head, or both?
1) God, I was an idiot back then! Just completely devoid of social ability and skill...also, my handwriting and grammar sucked.
2) I wasn't very likable. I mean, I was stubborn, socially inept, and thought I knew everything.
3) I was obsessed with getting revenge on my bullies. I talked about it constantly!
4) I was a horny little thing...Granted I was just discovering my sexuality and going through puberty, but page after page about my crushes on these boys, whom I've now completely forgotten about. I had the nerve to write in one entry that I had been in love "many times." And every time I would go up to the kid after having stared at and followed him around for months, confess my love, and make a complete fool of myself because...why not?
Of course, I think a lot of this is related to my potential autism. There was even a meeting with my teachers to discuss how to accommodate my Asperger's (I had forgotten this). So as much as I found my younger self to be absolutely annoying, it's hard not to feel compassion and a little sadness for what I was going through and for everything I now know was lying ahead.
When you think about your younger self, do you want to give yourself a hug, a smack in the back of the head, or both?