I used to love being on the internet. It was my way to get social connection. They don't interact in the same way and it was my way of transcending some of my social issues. When I first started being on the internet I was mostly on forums or in places like fandoms with mostly neurodiverse (most of the autistic) people but as time has passed more people are on the internet and I am less able to communicate right.
People use so many memes and slang that changes so quickly and there is so much nuance in it. There is always drama and people have gotten mad at me for saying things I knew to be true in my life but people assume I am like them and then call me names or assume I am prejudiced against autistic people or think bullying is ok etc (but I am autistic and have been bullied) I think it must be my phrashing but I don't want to tell everybody i'm autistic so I can talk about how I feel.
People make many general statements about groups of people that I don't fit all the way but I can't tell when things are meant for me or not and I get really anxious. The internet was my safe place but now I am too autistic for the internet and the real world. Now I have nowhere. How can I be on the internet when forums are less popular and even tumblr (the only social media I like since I can box myself away from drama since they only show me posts from people I follow) people are saying it's on it's way out.
People use so many memes and slang that changes so quickly and there is so much nuance in it. There is always drama and people have gotten mad at me for saying things I knew to be true in my life but people assume I am like them and then call me names or assume I am prejudiced against autistic people or think bullying is ok etc (but I am autistic and have been bullied) I think it must be my phrashing but I don't want to tell everybody i'm autistic so I can talk about how I feel.
People make many general statements about groups of people that I don't fit all the way but I can't tell when things are meant for me or not and I get really anxious. The internet was my safe place but now I am too autistic for the internet and the real world. Now I have nowhere. How can I be on the internet when forums are less popular and even tumblr (the only social media I like since I can box myself away from drama since they only show me posts from people I follow) people are saying it's on it's way out.