Hello everyone. I decided to get on here and try to succor some of the pain I deal with on a daily basis. PLEASE if any of this sounds like your thought process let me know. If you have some of the same issues please let me know. Sometimes I get on here and I gotta be honest, I think I get too real for some people. I even feel like I have been boycotted by some users on this site...they don't comment on my posts anymore when I started expressing my true feelings and not holding back.
Firstly, I hate my direct next door neighbors...They have been giving me guff passively in the form of spreading lies about me like telling people I'm retarded and stuff like that!! (And before I get the usual, I don't know of anyone ever doing that, well THEY DO.) I thought people were a little better than that but I was wrong. I call them the Flintstones. I would give my left arm to move...anywhere, or they move. I would die a happy man If those idiots moved away. They stand out on their front lawn and drink cheap beer one night a week like trash. They have made me a pariah in my OWN neighborhood. Everybody loves those morons. They have company all the time. That good ol' boy routine just infuriates me does that make sense to anybody?? People just eat out of those guys hands while I sit in my room alone with no friends and I'm the nicest, most loyal guy I've ever known.
Secondly, I need to go back to school. I have no money. I don't even have a car. Mine broke down almost a year ago. I don't feel like working minimum wage jobs that are fathoms below me just to "work my way through"college. Not at all.
I need a job that I can get to by bus. I need friends. I only have one person I talk to and I am basically just talking to her because she gets prescribed good stuff. I don't see anything wrong with that, I don't feel like I'm using her...She takes like 7 benzos a day and then complains when she can only take 5 a day because she gave me 2. She just lays around high on drugs all day.
I'm in a funk. I have no job. I have no life....period....I'm just existing.
Firstly, I hate my direct next door neighbors...They have been giving me guff passively in the form of spreading lies about me like telling people I'm retarded and stuff like that!! (And before I get the usual, I don't know of anyone ever doing that, well THEY DO.) I thought people were a little better than that but I was wrong. I call them the Flintstones. I would give my left arm to move...anywhere, or they move. I would die a happy man If those idiots moved away. They stand out on their front lawn and drink cheap beer one night a week like trash. They have made me a pariah in my OWN neighborhood. Everybody loves those morons. They have company all the time. That good ol' boy routine just infuriates me does that make sense to anybody?? People just eat out of those guys hands while I sit in my room alone with no friends and I'm the nicest, most loyal guy I've ever known.
Secondly, I need to go back to school. I have no money. I don't even have a car. Mine broke down almost a year ago. I don't feel like working minimum wage jobs that are fathoms below me just to "work my way through"college. Not at all.
I need a job that I can get to by bus. I need friends. I only have one person I talk to and I am basically just talking to her because she gets prescribed good stuff. I don't see anything wrong with that, I don't feel like I'm using her...She takes like 7 benzos a day and then complains when she can only take 5 a day because she gave me 2. She just lays around high on drugs all day.
I'm in a funk. I have no job. I have no life....period....I'm just existing.
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