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I wouldnt say my problem is anxiety so much as it is fear, if that makes any sense, people with anxiety dont generally fear being beaten, or framed for something, or unjustly arrested, or being robbed when they go out. I dont really have an ongoing support, my family arent very supportive and they all have bad tempers, im seeing a case manager regularly but hes frequently absent and to be honest theres not a lot that he really does, hell give me some very basic and vague directions when i go to him with a problem, thats it, and hes always bringing up me being terminated from the program for some reason, like because i want to work on another issue because something came up in my personal life. Honestly it seems like people are just generally incompetent and have no patience for me at all, its hard to keep going when i dont even know what im doing to begin with.I do get you very much. I have chronic social phobia, where it even takes courage and mental preparation to just go a few seconds from my home, to bins. I go each monday, because there are virtually no one about and often, if I see someone, I won't go out and the rubbish is just sitting on the table in our verandah and sometimes will beg hubby to get rid of it.
When I have been hurt by a human being, I feel like you, that every human being is out to get me and that they are full of evil and like you, I have had some nasty experiences that makes me just want to give up on humanity.
I have suffered great embarrassment with having social anxiety, until recently when someone reasoned with me and that took a little bit of the embarrassment away and then found that someone I never would have guessed as social anxiety, said that he does have it and some days, he cannot get out of the front door and what he does, is gives himself permission to get out of a situation that is causing him issues.
I hate strange places. But once they become familiar to me, I can go on my own, but I still hearing every footstep I take; my breathing and heart beat.
Social anxiety is so very lonely, because there are so many things I would love to do, but unable to do them and so, I am hoping to get a formal diagnosis soon and perhaps get some financial aid, which I do not feel embarrassed about, because I am not faking anything and I want to work and can work; just need to get there and back again.
Do you have any support system going ie a sympathetic person who will accompany you places?
That may be so for a few individuals who work from home, but most jobs today are service based. I dont really know a lot about computers, im not that great with them, i even struggle with how to use this forum a lot of the time. LolOur present time has never been better for people who wish to be employed without a lot of personal interaction. Can you pursue employment that allows for distance, like through the computer?
I believe I have a crippling social phobia and its preventing me from looking for work, I am unemployed and have been so for the past three and a half years. Its not that I cant interact with people (although I am accident prone with regards to social sotuations) but Im afraid of what they will say or do to me, this has kinda developed over time after a series of negative experiences, at work and otherwise. I am diagnosed with autism but I have done research and I can relate to a lot of the descriptions for some personality disorders, especially cluster A, like schizoid and schizotypal. I have been tested for schizophrenia in the past when I began to have troubles with psychosis but the evidence was inconclusive. My fear is so deep rooted that whenever I see a human in person or in a picture I have this negative gut reaction, I think to myself this person is evil, this person will hurt me or try to ruin me if I interact with them.. Ive just come to assocuate the human form with evil. When I interact with people the way they act seems to give me an impression that they are malicious and theyre conspiring against me. I have thought of looking for work at times and have even done up resumes and began the application process with several different businesses and government employment services but I get a bad feeling about it all the time and back out of it. Does anyone relate to this? What should I do? Ive tried taking medication in the past but none of it works
That may be so for a few individuals who work from home, but most jobs today are service based. I dont really know a lot about computers, im not that great with them, i even struggle with how to use this forum a lot of the time. Lol
Some of us can manage easier than others, I guess im an acquired taste that not everyone can do. I dont have a lot of insight into why things happen the way they do. Your lucky your employers were willing to come to a compromise. :}Oh, I know, my job had a lot of service elements until I got diagnosed and negotiated a change.
I'm just saying we are different and so is our path to making a living.
I wouldnt say my problem is anxiety so much as it is fear, if that makes any sense, people with anxiety dont generally fear being beaten, or framed for something, or unjustly arrested, or being robbed when they go out. I dont really have an ongoing support, my family arent very supportive and they all have bad tempers, im seeing a case manager regularly but hes frequently absent and to be honest theres not a lot that he really does, hell give me some very basic and vague directions when i go to him with a problem, thats it, and hes always bringing up me being terminated from the program for some reason, like because i want to work on another issue because something came up in my personal life. Honestly it seems like people are just generally incompetent and have no patience for me at all, its hard to keep going when i dont even know what im doing to begin with.
..I'll find a solution, of that I'm quite certain, I just don't know what that is at the moment.