Hazel87
Active Member
Has anyone else experimented with substances before? I don't these days but I definitely used to.
1. I was definitely self medicating trying to tweak my brain to function properly being undiagnosed and unaware of what my problem was.
2. one obsession I definitely have had is substances. Their effects, potentials, interactions, pharmacological make up, how they interact with the brain and neurotransmitters, harm reduction etc.
Funny enough, I used to go to a lot of music festivals and help with the harm reduction and also enjoy myself (although, strictly with only a couple of closer friends, and never for long because I couldn't handle the sensory overload without also having my safe comfortable space). It's amazing how much easier it was to be in social situations for me on certain substances. I've always known that I was low in dopamine because of my experimentation and it's funny that now I am substance free but on a regular dosage of dexedrine (amphetamine/speed) from the doctor and my ability to function and be in social situations is dramatically better usually. Its been life changing.
My obsession with substances and meds has definitely eased up (only took about 7 or 8 years lmao) but it's definitely an area of interest that I can still get lost in. I'm obsessive still about my meds, esp dexedrine and researching everything about it and reading other peoples experiences with it. I'm fascinated by it and I have to try and control myself not to talk about it constantly to my friends who I know are not even the slightest bit as interested as I am haha.
1. I was definitely self medicating trying to tweak my brain to function properly being undiagnosed and unaware of what my problem was.
2. one obsession I definitely have had is substances. Their effects, potentials, interactions, pharmacological make up, how they interact with the brain and neurotransmitters, harm reduction etc.
Funny enough, I used to go to a lot of music festivals and help with the harm reduction and also enjoy myself (although, strictly with only a couple of closer friends, and never for long because I couldn't handle the sensory overload without also having my safe comfortable space). It's amazing how much easier it was to be in social situations for me on certain substances. I've always known that I was low in dopamine because of my experimentation and it's funny that now I am substance free but on a regular dosage of dexedrine (amphetamine/speed) from the doctor and my ability to function and be in social situations is dramatically better usually. Its been life changing.
My obsession with substances and meds has definitely eased up (only took about 7 or 8 years lmao) but it's definitely an area of interest that I can still get lost in. I'm obsessive still about my meds, esp dexedrine and researching everything about it and reading other peoples experiences with it. I'm fascinated by it and I have to try and control myself not to talk about it constantly to my friends who I know are not even the slightest bit as interested as I am haha.