Deanna1117
Active Member
After dance class, I normally leave straight away, but after some annoying incident involving people forgetting to tell me things, my mom's been hugging me to try and fit in more, to join their group.
So today I joined my classmates and teacher in having dinner at McDonalds. I had to get a Filet-O-Fish, the smallest thing I could get without arousing suspicion. Urghhhhhhhhhh I was carving health food for once and now I have this gross oily thing in my stomach and tastebuds.
So I wasted half an hour there. We weren't chatting or anything, everyone was using their own phones. I had finished eating and was waiting for at least 10 mins when I checked the bus schedule and found my bus was coming (they were taking a different one in the other direction) and if I missed it I'd have to wait another 20 mins.
So I got up, explained about the bus and said my goodbyes. My teacher looked really shocked when she asked "Are you going already?" I made my escape, but now I can't stop thinking about it. Should I have stayed longer? Should I have just left when class ended like I wanted to?
If it was just classmates I wouldn't really care, but my teacher's opinion of me matters a lot. Will she think I'm selfish or something?
Keep in mind, on the way to class we had already wasted at least 45 mins on walking slowly therefore missing a train and a bus. I feel slowly driven crazy by their slowness. Do they have nothing else to do? Do they not want to go home?
Everything feels so pointless. I'll never fit in, and I'm not even sure I'd want to.
So today I joined my classmates and teacher in having dinner at McDonalds. I had to get a Filet-O-Fish, the smallest thing I could get without arousing suspicion. Urghhhhhhhhhh I was carving health food for once and now I have this gross oily thing in my stomach and tastebuds.
So I wasted half an hour there. We weren't chatting or anything, everyone was using their own phones. I had finished eating and was waiting for at least 10 mins when I checked the bus schedule and found my bus was coming (they were taking a different one in the other direction) and if I missed it I'd have to wait another 20 mins.
So I got up, explained about the bus and said my goodbyes. My teacher looked really shocked when she asked "Are you going already?" I made my escape, but now I can't stop thinking about it. Should I have stayed longer? Should I have just left when class ended like I wanted to?
If it was just classmates I wouldn't really care, but my teacher's opinion of me matters a lot. Will she think I'm selfish or something?
Keep in mind, on the way to class we had already wasted at least 45 mins on walking slowly therefore missing a train and a bus. I feel slowly driven crazy by their slowness. Do they have nothing else to do? Do they not want to go home?
Everything feels so pointless. I'll never fit in, and I'm not even sure I'd want to.