I have to get used to being alone. My parents who are in their 70s still act like they will live forever. When i ask them how to do certain things they do it in my stead. For exanple i have no idea how to pay taxes. I asked mom how to do it and she said we will do it together.
I guess they expect that i will have a heavenly revelation and learn these things on my own without anyone teaching me.
I don't know if it's because my mom is a nt and learns certain things on instinct or because she blocks out the truth that i am autistic and NEED help learning real life duties. I feel shameful for not knowing how to pay taxes, manage my own finances. Everytime i ask my mother i feel like i am a worthless disgusting person but i have to do this to stay alive.
I need to be prepared for when they die. I dont want to have a meltdown when they die because of real life tasks.
I guess they expect that i will have a heavenly revelation and learn these things on my own without anyone teaching me.
I don't know if it's because my mom is a nt and learns certain things on instinct or because she blocks out the truth that i am autistic and NEED help learning real life duties. I feel shameful for not knowing how to pay taxes, manage my own finances. Everytime i ask my mother i feel like i am a worthless disgusting person but i have to do this to stay alive.
I need to be prepared for when they die. I dont want to have a meltdown when they die because of real life tasks.
