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I will be okay

I feel awful inside but numb outside. Its like the anxiety and nausea is inside an ice shell. I hope it will pass soon.

I said what i meant to my friend and it did not end well. I had to mask but i was too anxious and i let it slip.

I am beginning to think she will not call or message me again. I hope i will have a good future even without her or any other friends. I am scared of being alone. So so scared.

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I talked with the kind old lady next door today. She is such a nice old lady i started crying after talking with her
 

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