Asperger's & Autism Forum

Hi,

I've been victim to my own rage. I've been bullied and abused my whole life by the police and the justice system, as well as other people who make it their mission to mistreat me. This was all in the past when I was younger. Nowadays, I will occasionally receive a visit from the police because I get into an argument with my family over the past. What's wrong with me? A month or so, I will be fine. A day later, I will get into a rage. I will talk to myself, mumbling to myself cursing myself or other people in my turbulent past. Sometimes, I fall into a rage where my skin starts to course with so much heat and anger that I just lose it. I constantly think about the past, and I get angry. Sometimes, I lose it after months or weeks. I'm afraid that the next time I lose it, the police will come to my apartment and try to tackle me to the ground and taser me or shoot me to death.

What's wrong with me? How do I let go of the past or lose the anger? Help me. Do any of you experience...

Okay, so here's a thing that happened just now.

I'm sitting here for awhile, right, doing stuff. And after a time, I very abruptly realize: my eyes feel quite strange. Kinda fried. And I've got a cough going. And so on. This confuses me for only a moment before I realize the culprit: the portable heater sitting to my left has been left on for WAY too long.

The basement is often too cold, you see. Even when summer is boiling hot. Heck if I know why. So I use that heater to counter that. The heater is very strong. And on top of that, the air in the basement is very DRY. The heater of course dries it out even more. So, when the heater is left on too long and I've been sitting in it's blast radius long enough, well.... it's pretty much the same result every time.

But somehow, I dont NOTICE that I'm experiencing this stupid problem until it's getting quite unpleasant. The sensations (and the cough) are there. But it's like it's not being processed. Now fortunately,...

I open this thread because Im interested in knowing if you happend to experience some hard time because you get used to work or do something with a particular kind of brand of object.

I personally like or only write with a particular brand of pens, cheap pens but so far the best I have ever used. Bic pens like the one on the picture
I can't used other kind of pens, other may be too "pointy" or bad ink, idk, but when I ran out of those and I cant find them in a library, I start to feel anxious.

Like 1.5years ago I ran out of pens, and I didn't find them near my home, I look for thm in several major brand stores and nothing, I was getting stressed until I found them in a small library, then I bought 2 boxes, 12pens each.

Those 2 boxes lasted me until this week, I still have 2 pens left, but since the lockdown/pandemic I can't easily go out and look for them, I even checked Amazon and was thinking of buying them there, I live in Costa Rica, imagine having to buy so cheap pens from...

Maybe there needs to be a law regarding youngsters with their modified cars, their extremely loud exhausts can really frighten people, aspies can have sensitive sensory issues

I was interested when people who are ASD 2 and others were discussing functionality, especially when people were contrasting their challenges IRL as opposed to their verbal skills online, and people were discussing many challenges to how they can practically function as opposed to apparent verbal and thinking abilities. @Ella Spell posted a visual test result showing a skewed picture of attributes, which seemed relevant.

I self diagnose as ASD 1, and I have a skewed experience whereby verbal and thinking processes, whilst having some challenges, such as slow processing, seem more functional than some areas that require physical coordination or other elements of functionality than verbal. Struggling to express this, hence the thread, as I wonder what others would say about how this works for them? I know there's plenty on here very handy and physically skilled so it's clearly not not necessarily about a thinking / doing split, exactly, and I can get good at 'doing' things,...

I keep seeing and hearing about cases of ASD 1 and sometimes ASD 3 online but I have never known of any ASD 2 cases except for this one user on the forums who I forgot the name of mentioning that he was diagnosed with it in his intro post.

What is living with ASD 2 like? What distinguishes ASD 2 with the other levels of Autism? I'd be interested if someone here could tell me what Autism Spectrum Disorder 2: Electric Boogaloo is like.

Take this test: https://testyourself.psychtests.com/bin/transfer
My result is 61/100, how are yours?
Higher result = Wider interests = Less autistic

It's funny but I think Autistic people are treated differently. I know I've been treated differently due to my condition. It's funny, but I think that society has a lack of accountability for the way it treats minorities like Autistic people. They kick, beat and pummel us into a corner until we have no other recourse but to snap. Some of us never had the same opportunities as neurotypicals to have a good career, a clean bill of health, friends or a girlfriend or children. We've had the worst odds in life. Some of us aren't financially independent and have to rely on dependents to get through life. Some of these dependents are abusive and take advantage of us. When we seek outside help, we are spurned by the community like its our fault. In the course of these events, we develop a crutch like a dark sense of humor to combat the harsh realities of life. Then to add insult to injury, they ask us what's wrong and when we tell them, they force feed us medication and they try to sedate...

I have self-diagnosed Asperger's. I'm 16 and have 2 more years of high school and then I can go to a university. I am very interested in medicine and want to study medicine and become a doctor. Do you think this will work well? I maintain good relationships with my classmates, but have no close friends and don't hang out outside of school, have narrow interests (medicine is one of them), i feel empathy, but don't know well how to express it. In school my marks are excellent, espicially form physics, chemistery and biology. I struggle a bit with reading comprehension and Croatian, English, German and History are a bit harder for me. Also, can they refuse me from medicine university if I get an offical diagnosis of Asperger's, I also had a cancer (Non-hodkgin Lymphoma) 3 years ago, but now it's all ok, except panic attacks if I find a lump somewhere in my body, but they always say it's all ok.