2wheels4ever
Well-Known Member
Most of my life I'd had off-and-on attractions to wearing diapers again and recently thought "what the hey" and started off with a bag of Goodnites and went from there, trying different brands. What I've found is that the "protection" is making it easier to be in the presence of my overbearing family more as well as the sensory feelgood. It is a bit of a risk of being found out and the possible aftermath of such, since I have no actual medical need though I was a late bedwetter.
Several things go through my mind; part of this has got to be the classic aspie late-blooming sudden intense interest. 2; I don't perceive my childhood as happy and loving as I thought it should have been, 3; I'm uncomfortable as an adult and the world's expectations for me to live up to, and 4; living with my family being the way it is, with these expectations and yet wanting to figuratively treat me as a toddler, this is a subconscious gesture in congruence with my history of stepping into the role of the accused. This is just my rational, logical self hashing it out, but from what I've been researching, it's like autism - it was already there and it's not going away on its own.
Am I truly alone in my double dose of weird?
Several things go through my mind; part of this has got to be the classic aspie late-blooming sudden intense interest. 2; I don't perceive my childhood as happy and loving as I thought it should have been, 3; I'm uncomfortable as an adult and the world's expectations for me to live up to, and 4; living with my family being the way it is, with these expectations and yet wanting to figuratively treat me as a toddler, this is a subconscious gesture in congruence with my history of stepping into the role of the accused. This is just my rational, logical self hashing it out, but from what I've been researching, it's like autism - it was already there and it's not going away on its own.
Am I truly alone in my double dose of weird?