It would be nice to be accepted by all, I have to admit, even though that is quite impossible - or is it? I mean, people are always parroting "well you can't expect to be liked by everyone, so just be happy to be liked by some" and YET, I see very often the opposite applies and those who just do not bother thinking deeply about friendships and the such, are liked by all; well, not me and so therefore, probably not by ones who share my charactistics lol
I have often thought: why does that person not take the time to get to know me? Why just after chatting a bit, they are only polite? I always ask people how they are and listen and remember. I am careful who I talk no stop too and only a couple of times I have been told that I go on, which is flipping unfair, since they do not look away and seem interested.
I was told recently that I look desparate and grateful when someone talks to me. How I hate that this person said it, but it is unsaid now and thus, makes me even more self conscious and this person thought they were being funny! And worse even added: sometimes when I am in conversation with you, I wonder when you will stop talking, so I can go and speak to someone else.
I felt that he took complete advantage of my having aspergers and even saying that his brother has aspergers and cringworthly and very steriotypically, described how he talks to his brother! And by the way: I am so worried about over talking that it is me who says I will let him go and talk to someone else and he is the one who says: no, it is fine, please keep talking and actually, he likes his own voice!
All this makes me even more social phobic than I am already are, because what one says, is not what one means!