I was married in 1996.
Lead-up to meeting my wife:
I always thought I was “normal” while at the same time knowing something was very, very wrong, though I had no idea what it was. Didn’t know I was autistic until 2016 at the age of 64. I always just thought I was “defective.”
I never had a real date in my life. In my 40’s, I once went on a date from a dating service. That was a traumatic failure. Heavy emphasis on Traumatic. Made me certain that any love life for me was not possible. All my life, all social reactions towards me was typically of revolt and at best, indifference. I felt worse than Quasimodo.
In late 1995 (I was 43), I lost my job (long a story about that). I built a Frankenstein computer out of scavenged parts and got online. This was about the time that America On Line (AOL) came into being with an on-line real-time “chat room”. Typing only, no voice, video or pics. I got a simple typing course pamphlet and learned to type. I started conversing in the AOL chat room with several people. Like here only live. Over a few weeks, they started dropping off with the exception of one. Our chats got longer and longer lasting for hours – extending through the evening, night and into the mornings. After a couple of months, she said she wanted to come for an in person visit. She lived about 400 miles away. This was shocking to me. I was terrified. I knew the visit would be a devastating rejection. I decided she had to know more about me. I told her about my social anxieties, my traumatic experiences, my extreme sensitivities, my PTSD’s, my chronic awkwardness, my medical issues, etc, etc. She still wanted to come. She came for a weekend visit. She returned again the next weekend – with furniture. She moved in. Less than a year later, she bought a bigger house and we moved into it. Then in December 1996 we got married.
The Wedding:
I couldn’t get over how impossibly unlikely it was that anyone could like me much less want to marry me. So, I decided to put on a play as part of our marriage ceremony. The play theme was that her kiss transformed me from a toad into a real person. At least, that’s how I felt at the time.
I built a podium for the minister, but it was actually for me to hide in. Heidi (my bride) picked up the large stuffed toad, said her lines and kissed the toad. She then placed the toad behind the podium. I then came out of the podium, dressed in a tux, to present her with a glass slipper. I was to tell her that her kiss transformed my life, but I froze up solid. Heidi got all her lines perfect and tried to fill in for me. I’m still disappointed that I botched my play.
I planned the wedding and wrote the play.
There were some family and friends. More family showed up than I imagined. Probably as many as 10 and about as many friends.
The wedding took place in the living room of our new house.
Did your spouse look amazing or just regular?
She was beyond amazing. She was fairytale level beautiful.
Still, 27 years later, I cannot look at this picture without crying.
Heidi is a miracle for me. She is an NT and my social buffer. Still can't imagine why she is still with me.
Always know that fairytales can happen, even to hopeless toads.
The AOL typing chat room was the key. We have both admitted that if we had met in person first, we would have never gotten together. We had to get to know each other with our words only. My appearance and mannerisms would have killed it.