Galaxy Freeze
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Not really sure what category I should put this topic in, but it's safest to put it in general I guess.
Okay guys, I've been having a really tough time with everything. Mainly family issues.
I've already been extremely angry lately because school started for me about two weeks ago (junior in high school), and I just feel it's a complete waste of my f*cking time. I already have a set career in mind (animation), and I work on my own animated series every day, but now that school has been going, I barely have any time. I have no choice but to stay up really late or get up at 3:00 in the morning just to get anything done for it. So that's already going on, at the same time, I've been having lots of trouble with my Asperger's and family. Mostly my mom.
I'm gonna start off by saying that my mom is a perfectionist (at least she is to me), our brains work in completely different ways. What sounds utterly pointless to me is something that is very important to her (usually my hair, or anything to do with how I look). This may sound silly, but this has been a continuous problem for years. If my hair doesn't look like I just walked out of a salon, she gets on my case about it (don't get me wrong, I want to look decent, but she goes way over the top). She's even made me late for school because of her nit-picking.
In general, I tend to look at the bigger, more important picture, while she only cares about small details. Ex. I'll be trying to tell her about how I had a good day because I aced a super hard math test or something, but she'd constantly be trying to ask me what I had for lunch or something dumb. (It's dumb to me, at least)
My mom and I fight almost every day, and 99% of the time, it's about something stupid. I'm posting this now because we just got in another huge fight about the blow-dryer. Yeah, the BLOW-DRYER. I won't go into detail, but it got ugly. Whenever we start fighting about something so stupid, she always has to go on about how stressful her life is, she doesn't even need to go into that. I don't understand. I know she's already stressed because we are having some issues with my sister and grandma, but I barely even interact with my mom. I don't try to cause trouble, and whenever we DO interact, most of the time it turns into a screaming match. I feel like she just takes all her stress out on me, when I try to make it up to her and do something nice for her, she always finds a way to yell at me for something! I am so sick of it, I don't want to talk to her.
I feel like she hates me for my Asperger's, and that I add nothing but stress to her life. I've confronted her about this, I've asked her, "How many positive things have I given you compared to all the negative things?" She was never able to answer. I feel like I'm nothing, my dad has even told her that I'll never learn anything about basic skills like learning how to use silver ware properly. You gotta be kidding me, this is the kind of stuff that builds up, and it pisses me off so much. I feel they can't see the bright sides of my disorder, like my skills and talents. They're always yelling at me about stupid bullsh*t that I could care less about. So sorry for the rant, I don't want to ruin anyone's day/night. But I've had it. I am so done with my parents. It really has all built up over the years, I feel like I'm gonna snap any minute.
I have that, "I'm not the daughter you wanted, I'm an alien from space" feeling. I feel this is the wrong planet, the wrong family. The wrong everything, and I'm f*cking SICK of it. I've tried to talk to them, but I think they really just don't understand everything about me. What do I do? I've even felt like killing myself several times because they make me feel worthless, since they only care about the negative side of my disorder. In other words, they aren't seeing it from my angle. How will I make them understand? Is anyone else in a similar situation? God, I just want to move out already. I. HATE. THIS.
I just need someone to talk to... I have my friends, but they're all straight A students and would rather be doing their stupid-ass homework at the lunch table than talking to me, so that's just great. I'm thinking I might talk to my school counselor, I don't want my parents to find out though, because I know it'll just be more drama. I'm sorry if I offended anyone with this post, I'm very upset, and I'm only typing what's on my mind right now. I might look at this later and regret posting. Keep that in mind. So if anyone on here has some helpful words, that'd be great... if you have a similar story, feel free to share, maybe we can help each other out. It'd be nice to see some like-minded people now.
Okay guys, I've been having a really tough time with everything. Mainly family issues.
I've already been extremely angry lately because school started for me about two weeks ago (junior in high school), and I just feel it's a complete waste of my f*cking time. I already have a set career in mind (animation), and I work on my own animated series every day, but now that school has been going, I barely have any time. I have no choice but to stay up really late or get up at 3:00 in the morning just to get anything done for it. So that's already going on, at the same time, I've been having lots of trouble with my Asperger's and family. Mostly my mom.
I'm gonna start off by saying that my mom is a perfectionist (at least she is to me), our brains work in completely different ways. What sounds utterly pointless to me is something that is very important to her (usually my hair, or anything to do with how I look). This may sound silly, but this has been a continuous problem for years. If my hair doesn't look like I just walked out of a salon, she gets on my case about it (don't get me wrong, I want to look decent, but she goes way over the top). She's even made me late for school because of her nit-picking.
In general, I tend to look at the bigger, more important picture, while she only cares about small details. Ex. I'll be trying to tell her about how I had a good day because I aced a super hard math test or something, but she'd constantly be trying to ask me what I had for lunch or something dumb. (It's dumb to me, at least)
My mom and I fight almost every day, and 99% of the time, it's about something stupid. I'm posting this now because we just got in another huge fight about the blow-dryer. Yeah, the BLOW-DRYER. I won't go into detail, but it got ugly. Whenever we start fighting about something so stupid, she always has to go on about how stressful her life is, she doesn't even need to go into that. I don't understand. I know she's already stressed because we are having some issues with my sister and grandma, but I barely even interact with my mom. I don't try to cause trouble, and whenever we DO interact, most of the time it turns into a screaming match. I feel like she just takes all her stress out on me, when I try to make it up to her and do something nice for her, she always finds a way to yell at me for something! I am so sick of it, I don't want to talk to her.
I feel like she hates me for my Asperger's, and that I add nothing but stress to her life. I've confronted her about this, I've asked her, "How many positive things have I given you compared to all the negative things?" She was never able to answer. I feel like I'm nothing, my dad has even told her that I'll never learn anything about basic skills like learning how to use silver ware properly. You gotta be kidding me, this is the kind of stuff that builds up, and it pisses me off so much. I feel they can't see the bright sides of my disorder, like my skills and talents. They're always yelling at me about stupid bullsh*t that I could care less about. So sorry for the rant, I don't want to ruin anyone's day/night. But I've had it. I am so done with my parents. It really has all built up over the years, I feel like I'm gonna snap any minute.
I have that, "I'm not the daughter you wanted, I'm an alien from space" feeling. I feel this is the wrong planet, the wrong family. The wrong everything, and I'm f*cking SICK of it. I've tried to talk to them, but I think they really just don't understand everything about me. What do I do? I've even felt like killing myself several times because they make me feel worthless, since they only care about the negative side of my disorder. In other words, they aren't seeing it from my angle. How will I make them understand? Is anyone else in a similar situation? God, I just want to move out already. I. HATE. THIS.
I just need someone to talk to... I have my friends, but they're all straight A students and would rather be doing their stupid-ass homework at the lunch table than talking to me, so that's just great. I'm thinking I might talk to my school counselor, I don't want my parents to find out though, because I know it'll just be more drama. I'm sorry if I offended anyone with this post, I'm very upset, and I'm only typing what's on my mind right now. I might look at this later and regret posting. Keep that in mind. So if anyone on here has some helpful words, that'd be great... if you have a similar story, feel free to share, maybe we can help each other out. It'd be nice to see some like-minded people now.