Well, the fact that you mentally glue the concepts of "liking specific music" and "social success" together is part of the problem, I can guarantee you that. Nobody who gets into something like this just to please others will ever end up really sticking with it all that long, and even if they do, they likely aint gonna be too satisfied, or even enjoying it all that much. I've seen people do this sort of thing 5 bazillion times, and it never works out. Either they end up in a position where they're just going through the motions to please others (which will lead to burnout and depression), or they end up hanging around a bunch of shallow airheads whose only interest in that person is whether they like X thing or not.
Just listen to what YOU like. Because you feel like listening to it, not because you think it'll be some sort of bloody social magnet (which aint how it works in any case). There's no reason to care about what others like, at least not to the extreme extent that you currently do. And if someone's willingness to be social with you is entirely dependent on "well you like this song here" then they aint someone who is worth hanging out with in the first place. I mean, how freaking shallow would that be, for someone to do that? Do you want a connection with someone to be THAT flimsy?
Also at this point I'm STILL entirely baffled on who this mysterious legion of people who apparently hate you are. I'm gonna take a guess and say that quite a good bit of that is entirely in your head... just call it a hunch.
And even if there's someone who just bloody despises you for who knows what reason and they happen to listen to whatever, well... who cares? They aint worth thinking about. And for all you know, they were lying about it anyway or just pretended to like it, who knows? Who cares? Just pick the bloody music you personally enjoy listening to. And then dont go near them. This also is the case for dealing with a toxic community. If that's something you're running into, well, freaking stop doing that. Seek out somewhere else with people who arent jerks. Some communities are just toxic.... you could be the most likable person in the universe and they'd still act nasty, because that's how a toxic community is, you see?
So, in conclusion: Music turned on, jerks booted OUT.
I keep telling ya, until you get this kind of stuff out of mind, you're just gonna keep floundering. That concept has not changed. And just repeating it over and over in words on the forum isnt helping. Take actual steps, instead of just going "woe is me" over and over.
I know it's harsh to hear, but until you learn that lesson, nothing is likely to change.
Ya know what I'd like to see from you? A topic that isnt one of these, but is instead more like "hey, I set this small goal for myself recently, and I got up and just freaking did it". Wouldnt that be a much better post to make? Imagine how excited everyone here would be for you.
