CassLovesBears
Alekzandra
Although not yet diagnosed I'm on a journey to discovering whether or not I have aspergers. I have odd experiences in childhood that I'd like assistance in decoding. As a child I would hardly ever converse to my friends parents because I feared them. I had an abnormal fear of adults. This fear made me very driven to be liked and I never wanted to be seen as a bad kid. Maybe it derived from my strong desire to please people. I'm not exactly sure. All I remember is being sensitive to adults and their criticism. I hated when adults were angry with me because I can't stand yelling or even slight raise in voice when depicting anger. I never was able to. My Mother took pride in the fact that she hardly ever had to discipline me because talking to me meanly was enough. I also remember my friends parents disciplined us for being rude to a girl. I tried so hard not to cry even though they weren't even my parents. I just was so upset at the concept of getting in trouble. Still to this day I have a fear of authority figures. Talking to a boss would be near impossible for me without anxiety. I'm instantly anxious around cops too. I also was anxious about how my teachers perceived me.