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AprilR

AprilR

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  • AprilR
    How do you explain your weirdness without disclosing your autism? I have no idea
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you all. I seem weird to people bc most people my age have their own business while i am working in a small ofice with very little pay. They don't understand my social difficulties
    Judge
    Judge
    We constitute only 1.8% of society, neurologically speaking according to the CDC. In essence, IMO the odds of explaining one's "weirdness" is no better or worse than explaining one's autism.

    For this reason IMO, perhaps the best thing to do is to abstain from attempting even trying to explain either. Accept your own uniqueness unconditionally. :)
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    Luca
    AprilR
    I never forget even the smallest kindness, and not the smallest wrongdoing. I like to repay people full for how they treated me.
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    This is just some self talk, since i forgive people way too easily bc i want to be a person tolerant of people's shortcomings. But hurting someone without any reason is not a shortcoming and should not be forgiven
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    1ofakind
    Thank you for your kind and supportive comment on the thread I started. You seem like a caring person. There is a big difference from people asking forgiveness who truly care and those who don't care. I'm glad that you seem to be working on maintaining healthy boundaries against bad/toxic behavior.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you as well, and same to you. I hope we can both improve on setting healthy boundaries with people.
    AprilR
    I am planning on telling my employer that organizing a ton of stuff on top of my current responsibilities is too much for me. There is bound to be a mistake sooner or later due to the sensory hell that is the office plus my adhd and executive dysfunction issues
    AprilR
    AprilR
    The worst thing is my senior coworker likes to rub my every single mistake to my face. I think she might be a covert narcissist
    AprilR
    I need to stop internalizing other people's negative views of me. Yesterday my mom Said she does not think i am lazy and irresponsible. Well that is at least one person
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    Luca
    I don’t think you’re lazy or irresponsible either.
    Sometimes I also struggle to not internalize negative things people say about me. It’s hard not to but it’s better to focus on the positive things. The people who are the loudest are usually the most negative ones so it’s important to make the nicer people feel heard.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you. I spent the weekend working on two assignments and i regularly stay at the office for over time so i dont think i am lazy either.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    I dont know you personally but from what ive seen on here you dont sound lazy at all!
    AprilR
    I want to go home. I had enough of this job. I am sorry for my employer but i cannot do this any longer. I am so exhausted
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I just want to forget about everything and everyone i met here. I dont want anyone to remember me either
    AprilR
    A New coworker is starting tomorrow! I hope she is a nice person, maybe we can even be friends.. Haha.. I wish
    AprilR
    I used to think religious people would be more understanding of my disability. Now i simply think that they don't understand there is something weird about me, i mask too well. But my weirdness when it shows throws them off.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    It is a rude awakening
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    I think that sounds accurate to some of what I've experienced as well. There is something about being slightly different that really upsets people for some reason.
    blue_bird
    blue_bird
    I often find religious people to be quite sociable and 'clique-ky'. I stick out like a sore thumb since I'm definitely a lone wolf but they seem to be more accepting when I'm less shy and distant.
    AprilR
    There is something like a festival going on in my street. I also want to go but too much work and i have no one to go with
    AprilR
    AprilR
    My makeup also got smudged although i spent a lot of time doing it and it annoyed me immensely.
    AprilR
    Just want to make a clean exit from this job. Everything is already falling apart
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Maybe it’s finally time to go.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    If it's really stressful and you are financially able to survive without this or find something else maybe it would be good to leave or take a break from working. Pushing yourself too much can be bad.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    My senior coworker is leaving also. I do not know how to keep on going without her help and maybe this is increasing the stres.
    AprilR
    I feel like i hate my life. I cannot relate to anyone around me, not my mom not my friend and i feel hopeless most of my time
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Even me being religious is a topic of joke for my family. I dont get them. I dont get them at all
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I hope you like duck hugs.

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    AprilR
    AprilR
    So cute! Thank you so much! *Hugs back*
    AprilR
    I love the smell of my home after cleaning! The biggest motivation for me to clean lol
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    VictorR
    I'm going to echo @Kisa the tea and say that I'm totally feeling peer pressure right now.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Oh no please don't! I actually like cleaning, since i love the clean smell of the house afterwards, so its fun to me, not like a chore. It is very hard to do other chores though..
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    It is but sometimes it needs to be done like in my case. And I wanted to clean before my trip anyway. I just finished actually. I'm officially a part of International Autism Forum Cleaning Day!
    AprilR
    The only person who sometimes helps me at work is quitting. I dont know what will i do from now on
    Myshhmajster
    Myshhmajster
    You will not give up
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Does this change your thinking on whether to stay or leave?
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Idk, i will probably have to stay for a while though since two people quitting at once would make things harder for my employer
    AprilR
    I am talking with my autistic friend about not driving and it has relaxed me immensely.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    So many people pressure me about this
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    April, a lot of people do not drive. If you can live somewhere you do not need to, more power to you.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    I also do not drive. I find cars scary and only get in one as a passenger out of necessity. The world should not revolve around car usage.
    AprilR
    I feel like crying whenever someone makes fun of my beliefs. Like why do i have to drink alcohol? I hate being an outsider even among my family. I hate it so much.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I havent felt this way in a while. Suffice to say i didn't miss it at all
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I cant even consider quitting alcohol bc of that.
    AprilR
    The more i interact with people the more disconnected from myself i become
    Knower of nothing
    Knower of nothing
    compulsive people pleasing perhaps? if you find yourself betraying yourself at every little interaction like that
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Probably, i am so used to acting. I dont think i am betraying myself by acting though, it is just a little tiring.
    AprilR
    Till the end of the moon is a visually gorgeous cdrama. Alas i cannot watch bc i empathize too much with the main character and it hurts.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Kinda weird since i was never outrightly abused like him but it hurts just the same
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