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AprilR

AprilR

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  • AprilR
    My weekend is ruined, i was soaked in the rain and had to still go to work since i had too much work to do but my head hurt so much i had to leave early
    AprilR
    Omg i am so glad my coworker left. She is so arrogant.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    People can't even speak on the group chat without miss know it all putting everyone down. Good riddance
    AprilR
    I have a therapist appointment in 2 days and don't even want to see her. There is only so much my therapist can do, she cannot control my circumstances and she is probably feeling depressed too. I don't want to burden her further
    tree
    tree
    You're right.
    Therapist can't control your circumstances.
    That's not her job.

    Her work is to help you learn how to deal with your thoughts and feelings
    about your circumstances.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Remember that therapists are trained to manage their own feelings and they have resources for this. It is not your job to keep your therapist happy or keep them from having difficulties. It is an unbalanced relationship in this way. She is there for you. Your feelings are the ones that matter in therapy.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you both. I will not cancel it after all
    AprilR
    I am scared for my future. Right now i hate the fact that i was born in this country
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    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    What happened? Is there any way we can help you?
    I also feel that way often. It's feel like playing life in hard-mode, as if it wasn't hard enough for us by itself.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I would like to be western european.

    Thank you, there is nothing anyone can do sadly. I am stuck here, and can't imagine to move to another country as i am too old and socially inept to ever survive in a foreign country without any help.
    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    You're not too old at all! I am sure you will be able to make it if that's what you want. Depending on our circumstances it may take from days to years to be able to do so, but we'll get there. But I agree about the last part, it'd be hard to be to move to a different country unless I already know I have a job there, otherwise I'd to too socially inept to get one
    AprilR
    I celebrated my friend for Mother's day. She answers with "i hope you get to experience it too" I am sorry but no.
    AprilR
    One of the things i dislike most about my condition is my social difficulties. If they did not exist i would have immigrated to a different country long ago
    Atrapa Almas
    Atrapa Almas
    As I moved from Spain to Mexico I found out that many mexican people tend to excuse my social mistakes as "thats how spanish people must normaly behave". So to me its being at advantage to camouflage.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Idk, if i was younger maybe i would consider it. But i spent too much time and effort on my degree and my job.( I can't do my job in a different country)
    AprilR
    I am trying not to hope too much.. Bc i know i will prob. Be disappointed. But still..
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I want to believe in the future and that there is hope for me and ppl like me.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    We can always hope for hope! Hope is a powerful thing that cannot be scared away if we choose to protect it.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I am scared to be disappointed. (There are elections tomorrow)
    AprilR
    Tomorrow is my coworker's Last day at work. I dont really like her much but she was my senior and was very hardworking.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    She is getting married and moving to another city. I wish her well regardless
    AprilR
    I am expected to organize an office right now.
    Lowkey want to get fired since i am too exhausted
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I do not want to make a mistake and cause problems for my employer. I am so anxious
    AprilR
    Listening to 12 hour long playlists for calming cats. I wish all animals in the world happy and peaceful lives.
    AprilR
    Thinking of quitting my job if i experience another shutdown. I think that's fair
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    One positive thing about this job is, i learned a lot. And i am a lot more confident in my skills than before.
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    @AprilR that right there is good thinking. Now if you can take that & have positive references it'll help with getting a better job.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sometimes we move on in life after we outgrow jobs, relationships, parents, etc.
    AprilR
    How do you explain your weirdness without disclosing your autism? I have no idea
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you all. I seem weird to people bc most people my age have their own business while i am working in a small ofice with very little pay. They don't understand my social difficulties
    Judge
    Judge
    We constitute only 1.8% of society, neurologically speaking according to the CDC. In essence, IMO the odds of explaining one's "weirdness" is no better or worse than explaining one's autism.

    For this reason IMO, perhaps the best thing to do is to abstain from attempting even trying to explain either. Accept your own uniqueness unconditionally. :)
    L
    Luca
    AprilR
    I never forget even the smallest kindness, and not the smallest wrongdoing. I like to repay people full for how they treated me.
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    This is just some self talk, since i forgive people way too easily bc i want to be a person tolerant of people's shortcomings. But hurting someone without any reason is not a shortcoming and should not be forgiven
    1
    1ofakind
    Thank you for your kind and supportive comment on the thread I started. You seem like a caring person. There is a big difference from people asking forgiveness who truly care and those who don't care. I'm glad that you seem to be working on maintaining healthy boundaries against bad/toxic behavior.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you as well, and same to you. I hope we can both improve on setting healthy boundaries with people.
    AprilR
    I am planning on telling my employer that organizing a ton of stuff on top of my current responsibilities is too much for me. There is bound to be a mistake sooner or later due to the sensory hell that is the office plus my adhd and executive dysfunction issues
    AprilR
    AprilR
    The worst thing is my senior coworker likes to rub my every single mistake to my face. I think she might be a covert narcissist
    AprilR
    I need to stop internalizing other people's negative views of me. Yesterday my mom Said she does not think i am lazy and irresponsible. Well that is at least one person
    L
    Luca
    I don’t think you’re lazy or irresponsible either.
    Sometimes I also struggle to not internalize negative things people say about me. It’s hard not to but it’s better to focus on the positive things. The people who are the loudest are usually the most negative ones so it’s important to make the nicer people feel heard.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you. I spent the weekend working on two assignments and i regularly stay at the office for over time so i dont think i am lazy either.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    I dont know you personally but from what ive seen on here you dont sound lazy at all!
    AprilR
    I want to go home. I had enough of this job. I am sorry for my employer but i cannot do this any longer. I am so exhausted
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I just want to forget about everything and everyone i met here. I dont want anyone to remember me either
    AprilR
    A New coworker is starting tomorrow! I hope she is a nice person, maybe we can even be friends.. Haha.. I wish
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