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Hello, I'm new here and interested in networking with other aspie type couples. This was my first week back in work and I had to drag my feet a bit as a result of the extended holiday period.:no: Wishing you all a good 2011....:P Please do introduce yourself to me here and make 2011 memorable for hubby and I.:)

I haven't achieved what I have longed for, but I am hopeful. I am not anything special, but I believe with getting everything in order I will be on the right track. I was hopeful to find companionship/ boyfriend, but honestly if it happens it happens. I am not too worried. I like my bubble and how things operate. Although I see a need for change, to better myself instead of living in the same mundane routine. Who the hell knows, what I really long for is achievement at a university, and to...

It's been a while since my last blog entry but I thought I'd kick this out here and take the chance to wish you all a merry Christmas and best wishes for the new year. Whatever you do, try your best to enjoy it and spend it with the people you love. Soak up the good feeling and really make an effort to make it special. Best regards, - CJTheCreepingOne.

This Christmas we decided not to get a tree, and other than hanging the wreath on our door we haven't decorated at all. I really haven't felt like doing much of anything, and today we went and bought the few small gifts for the kids in the family, and quite frankly there wasn't much feeling at all about it. Pretty much just, Eh! That will be Ok, whatever. Then on to grocery shopping. The regular store didn't have ripe bananas so i went out later just for that. So I'm in a hurry and...

Today's topic I'm going to talk about is relationships only because I know this person who really likes that person and as far as I know, it's going round like a continous loop so I thought I'd bring up my own opinion on relationships. Well relationship now a days, it's like nobody really knows what love is and it just disappoints me and it's all fun and games, well the reality is... It's not, it is nothing like how it seems and it's more complcated then I thought and I know this...

Ive always been without many friends, and never quite known why. i would meet new friends and then lose them again, i started wondering if it was normal too only have friends for a week or two. ive always loved school, loved to learn new things but some things took alot longer for me to learn then the others so i was marked as the slow kid or the dumb kid by the others. but in some things i was a genius, i knew everything about a single topic, things that i cared for. And the...

why me i wonder? why should i be the one to have this mess i my head? i feel i need to be someone else, someone who can help others. but why? why do i feel this, why do these toughts pound my head. have i done something to be given this, this endless caos? this caos of confusing and draining mess? its as caotic and confusing as an rambling old man, meeningless and random. anything that can be tought of is tought. its like someone is telling me something but they are to far...

I feel like I meet the criteria for a Asperger's diagnosis, I certainly have enough of the characteristics. Like many adults with AS who are "functional" an official dx doesn't really provide me with any benefits. There are no programs to help people like me, and I don't want, or qualify for, any type of disability. It is also possible that if I were to get a dx I might be deemed un-insurable at some point in the future, or that information may be leaked to my employer, or future employers....

so i have managed to do nothing but get hurt all week. starting with i woke up Monday morning and apparently turned my neck to fast a certain way and poped it... i pulled a muscle when that happen which is still healing slowly but surely... and besides that i have only tripped i don't know how many times and fell once when i tripped... oh and slipped on ice lol yeah not my week at all and my memory is bad to ...:wtf::(

5:20AM I turn the alarm off on the second beep. Slip from the bed, fish around in my dresser drawers for socks and a tee shirt. Quiet, I try not to wake him. I open the door to a dark closet in a dark room. Inside my hands feel the texture of my work shirt and the smooth fabric of my pants. I grasp my bundle of clothes and tiptoe off to the kitchen to dress, the cat is waiting for a morning treat and the dog soon follows, to be let out, then back in, than back to bed for him. Lazy dog....

I remember being wild, before I went to kindergarten at age 5. The world was a magical place, it was enormous, I played in the back yard alone a lot, I ate vegetables right off the bush in our little garden. Each day was an adventure, and I knew I was loved. When others were mean to me, I felt sorry for them, I knew they must feel really bad about being so hurtful. I went to Sunday School at church, where I learned God was all around us and in everything and everyone. I went home and...

Ever felt like giving up in life because of what has happened in the past or have something that is dragging you down? From when I was younger, I was a kid with so much dreams and imaginations that it got to the point where I was known as the weird kid and getting bullied was the downside of it. From when I was diagnosed, things just went downhill for me, I was more attracted to getting bullied, I was getting treated as if I had a really low IQ to begin but at the same time was able to...

the group is going good and i got to see my OT teacher for the first time these year... :D:)

i was told by a friend back home that I should not reveal too much of my real name anymore, and he suggested changing my Twitter, Facebook and all these sorts of account numbers, even emails too. Though I am ok using my name, he sounded so persuasive that I feel a bit coerced to change all my usernames, etc. Because my own autism data had been leaked by my high school, I had not been successful while applying for jobs that I liked in the government sector (i.e. teaching, internships etc)....

No matter what people say, it's good for me to have some defense against all forms of hurt before i really master my interpersonal skills to build mechanisms against hurt. My own seniors in high school, even counting one NT, do spend some time alone doing the things they like. i just want to have some time alone when I can master my own destiny for a while almost completely.