Yes, I did lose one, a big one, though... I'm not going to explain that directly, really. Here on the forums I'll talk about almost anything, but there are a couple of very specific exceptions, and THAT is one of them. Because currently that open wound just hurts too much to talk about. But there's nothing I can do...
Or so I thought, at least. TECHNICALLY, a potential route to getting that back has shown itself, but... only technically. Whether it's truly doable, I dont know yet. So for the time being, I'm really just trying to not think about it.
I once believed playing the keyboard was my future. My struggles with reading sheet music and my mother scolding me because I couldn’t play a piece right on the piano put an end to that belief.
I took guitar lessons from 2003 through 2020 but I am honestly a poor guitar player. I can’t do certain techniques despite being shown how to do them and I mess up constantly when playing full songs. My guitar is currently collecting dust.
I have similar issues with drawing.
Something I've learned through my art hobby/whatever is that this sort of thinking really is a trap.
Like, that sheet music thing, right. I ran into the *exact* same problem. Cant read sheet music. Visually, I cant quite process it (and also I'm very nearsighted and all those lines are so close together).
But... turns out, not all musicians actually use sheet music at all. It IS possible to learn to play without it (and there are all sorts of tutorials out there on this), but I didnt discover this until recently. I had allowed an assumption to keep me from playing at all for a bloody long time. In hindsight, that was pretty silly of me. I actually currently intend to FINALLY set up my ol' keyboard again and get back to it, I just have to actually figure out WHERE I will put it.
Same with drawing. There's this idea I see with many people, and that I previously had myself, where it's like "well I have to learn to draw LIKE THIS or it's not good". Schools of all types are particularly bad about this as they tend to instill that very idea into students' heads.
But what allowed me to FINALLY really get started with art, REALLY get into it and to start making things that even I think are nice, was to entirely abandon that idea.
Finding my OWN way of doing things... instead of trying to mimic the ways others do things (which is what most people do)... was the thing that sort of jumpstarted me with this stuff.
Remember, art is meant to be creative... not formulaic. That was the big lesson I had to learn. It's a lesson that I think could be applied to many different creative hobbies, really.