Hi all,
This is my first post here on aspiescentral.com. I did lurk around a few aspergers websites but decided to just dive in and join one. I used to post on many forums regarding my interests and hobbies (which I will get to later!) but this is the first time that I am posting using my "real" (well, close) name rather than a complete pseudonym.
I am 29, male, and self diagnosed with aspergers but when I read the books by Kendall (I think thats his name? Cant be bothered to look it up at the moment)
I found I had 95% of the symptoms.
I've been aware of being different since I was a kid. I was a loner until I was 17-18. I've never had a girlfriend (and don't really feel like dealing with it right now) and I also have trouble holding down a job or getting accepted for one as I'm terrible at interviews due to my social anxiety at being judged. However other than that I am fairly high functioning I think, as the long years of being bullied and stuff in elementary and junior high, but also admittedly some excellent teachers and TAs in elementary especially grades 5-7 to whom I will forever be grateful helped me adjust at least partially to "NT" communication styles.
I'm actually pretty decent at acting, especially in comedy. I applied similar skills from drama class (our drama teacher may well have had aspergers as well: he was definitely awkward and lanky but his acting skills were just terrific, and he had a bit of jitters teaching us kids, but I think we all liked him, and I do wish him well wherever you are, Mr. Wallace.) to "perform" the social game. It took work, I was still awkward and a little goofy, but I could laugh and talk with NTs about various subjects at least for a time.
I suppose I am relatively fortunate. My family has been mostly supportive, and my dad was probably AS himself as well. I am somewhat goofy with my friends, but very shy and almost cataconic in front of ppl with authority: I am a nervous wreck and will absolutely wilt under pressure. I hate conflict to the point where I was once a pushover basically, but admittedly the internet has helped, and I've been a "keyboard warrior" for years now, but I don't really want to flamewar or troll anymore (yes I admit I did troll youtube vids I didn't like back in the day, but I'm trying to move on. I think all those years of being pushed around pushed me to a point where I lashed out at anything I didn't like on the interent) , thats in the past now I hope!
As for my interests? Well, I'm Canadian, so hockey's a big one. So big, in fact, I am convinced hockey along with video game fandom single-handedly ended my friendless status in grade 12, my final year of high school. How much was I into hockey? I would go to games and basically mouth off stats and strategies to random strangers in the stadium. Being an aspie I didn't realize that they might be bored by my incessant analysis of hockey even though they were at the game. Using my studly aspie logic, I thought "you came to the hockey game: Good! Let me educate you on the pros and cons of playing an umbrella PP strategy over an overload strategy!" :wavespin: (I won't get into the details of them here! It will take up at least another page's worth of text!) I didn't understand what sarcasm was. In uni I actively enjoyed taking opposite opinions of my classmates. (For instance, I was trollingly pro-Bush and pro-Republican in a very liberal part of Canada, LOL!) I said "didh't you guys talk about overpopulation and scarce resources? War will take care of that!" And shocked everyone. But I loved it. That was my way of getting back at NTs, of sorts. (PS. Im not actually all that rightwing, I did it more to rile ppl up than anything TBH)
Hmmm.... well I also like strategy wargames and military stuff in general, WW2 history, Ancient Roman history, Chinese and Japanese history, etc, etc a war buff basically.
Wow I've rambled on long enough! Hope to talk to you all soon!
Sincerely,
Eman
This is my first post here on aspiescentral.com. I did lurk around a few aspergers websites but decided to just dive in and join one. I used to post on many forums regarding my interests and hobbies (which I will get to later!) but this is the first time that I am posting using my "real" (well, close) name rather than a complete pseudonym.
I am 29, male, and self diagnosed with aspergers but when I read the books by Kendall (I think thats his name? Cant be bothered to look it up at the moment)
I found I had 95% of the symptoms.I've been aware of being different since I was a kid. I was a loner until I was 17-18. I've never had a girlfriend (and don't really feel like dealing with it right now) and I also have trouble holding down a job or getting accepted for one as I'm terrible at interviews due to my social anxiety at being judged. However other than that I am fairly high functioning I think, as the long years of being bullied and stuff in elementary and junior high, but also admittedly some excellent teachers and TAs in elementary especially grades 5-7 to whom I will forever be grateful helped me adjust at least partially to "NT" communication styles.
I'm actually pretty decent at acting, especially in comedy. I applied similar skills from drama class (our drama teacher may well have had aspergers as well: he was definitely awkward and lanky but his acting skills were just terrific, and he had a bit of jitters teaching us kids, but I think we all liked him, and I do wish him well wherever you are, Mr. Wallace.
) to "perform" the social game. It took work, I was still awkward and a little goofy, but I could laugh and talk with NTs about various subjects at least for a time. I suppose I am relatively fortunate. My family has been mostly supportive, and my dad was probably AS himself as well. I am somewhat goofy with my friends, but very shy and almost cataconic in front of ppl with authority: I am a nervous wreck and will absolutely wilt under pressure. I hate conflict to the point where I was once a pushover basically, but admittedly the internet has helped, and I've been a "keyboard warrior" for years now, but I don't really want to flamewar or troll anymore (yes I admit I did troll youtube vids I didn't like back in the day, but I'm trying to move on. I think all those years of being pushed around pushed me to a point where I lashed out at anything I didn't like on the interent) , thats in the past now I hope!
As for my interests? Well, I'm Canadian, so hockey's a big one. So big, in fact, I am convinced hockey along with video game fandom single-handedly ended my friendless status in grade 12, my final year of high school. How much was I into hockey? I would go to games and basically mouth off stats and strategies to random strangers in the stadium. Being an aspie I didn't realize that they might be bored by my incessant analysis of hockey even though they were at the game. Using my studly aspie logic, I thought "you came to the hockey game: Good! Let me educate you on the pros and cons of playing an umbrella PP strategy over an overload strategy!" :wavespin: (I won't get into the details of them here! It will take up at least another page's worth of text!) I didn't understand what sarcasm was. In uni I actively enjoyed taking opposite opinions of my classmates. (For instance, I was trollingly pro-Bush and pro-Republican in a very liberal part of Canada, LOL!) I said "didh't you guys talk about overpopulation and scarce resources? War will take care of that!" And shocked everyone. But I loved it.
That was my way of getting back at NTs, of sorts. (PS. Im not actually all that rightwing, I did it more to rile ppl up than anything TBH)Hmmm.... well I also like strategy wargames and military stuff in general, WW2 history, Ancient Roman history, Chinese and Japanese history, etc, etc a war buff basically.
Wow I've rambled on long enough! Hope to talk to you all soon!
Sincerely,
Eman
