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What do you do specifically to live up to NT standards.I want to give up but know I can’t. I’m exhausted from pushing myself so hard and trying to work so hard and live up to NT standards. I don’t have any other option though. I hate this and want it to end
Mostly working. I’ve worked an average of 50 hours a week in kitchens since age 16, became a manager, walked to work, always worked for bad pay. I’m trying to switch to tattooing while making no money as an apprentice so I have to work a second job… so essentially I’m working two jobs now just to barely get by. The constant faking is destroying me. My attention issues and anger has only gotten worse over the years. I can’t focus on anything and get anything done. Because I’m outwardly interpreted as “smart” by society and how they perceive / define that asset it doesn’t seem like I’m eligible for any kind of assistance or pushed to get comfort or help by family. I’m expected to think and respond to life the same as a NT.What do you do specifically to live up to NT standards.
Good point haha. You made me laugh. Thank youIf your name is Hannibal, you CANNOT give up. You just can't. Channel the other Hannibal.....Barca.
Even with exercise and mindfulness I want to collapse. I feel like I’m pushing myself too hard and others are too. Hopefully it’ll get better with timeWe all have to tough out the NT world. It's hard. I am totally in agreement. I want to yell at all NT's and then climb into my turtle shell. But l know this is unrealistic and l need to chill out and reset my thinking by getting some great exercise, and thinking about the kind people l do know.
I hope you are getting adequate nutrition, taking your vitamins and learning to power nap! It's easy it's just attempted meditation where you deliberately fall asleep, it only takes 40 minutesEven with exercise and mindfulness I want to collapse. I feel like I’m pushing myself too hard and others are too. Hopefully it’ll get better with time
Mostly working. I’ve worked an average of 50 hours a week in kitchens since age 16, became a manager, walked to work, always worked for bad pay. I’m trying to switch to tattooing while making no money as an apprentice so I have to work a second job… so essentially I’m working two jobs now just to barely get by. The constant faking is destroying me. My attention issues and anger has only gotten worse over the years. I can’t focus on anything and get anything done. Because I’m outwardly interpreted as “smart” by society and how they perceive / define that asset it doesn’t seem like I’m eligible for any kind of assistance or pushed to get comfort or help by family. I’m expected to think and respond to life the same as a NT.
I’ve noticed over the years and specifically past few months I’ve been declining to the point I feel I can barely take care of myself independently.
I have a very limited threshold like most autistic people do. If I’m working so much I can’t socialize. If I’m socializing a lot I can’t work a lot. I’ve not done anything fun in a long time and I can’t because I’m so zapped.
I wish people and professionals could better understand just because I can drive, cook decent meals, and don’t have an intellectual disability that it doesn’t mean I’m not struggling severely in other ways.
Yip. I agree with ALL of this! The gym is great. I go to one. Anyway, it is tough dealing with other NDs too. Some of them. Not just NTs.We all have to tough out the NT world. It's hard. I am totally in agreement. I want to yell at all NT's and then climb into my turtle shell. But l know this is unrealistic and l need to chill out and reset my thinking by getting some great exercise, and thinking about the kind people l do know.
Good way of wording it. Thank you.I understand where you are coming from. I tell myself, I am very capable and smart, AND I am autistic. So if you were in a wheelchair you wouldn't expect to be an olympic runner. Same thing. Except you can't see our disability.
I have a badge on my rucksack that says "keep calm I'm autistic". I feel comforted by that badge because I'm allowing myself not to be perfect and telling the world that I'm not.