ConfusedKetchup
New Member
I had a meltdown earlier... this is something I typed out as I was coming down from it all.
How do you make sense of it when things are good, but at the same time things are bad. My family needs help, but I don't know where to go or where to turn and the kind of help we need is not cheap, and is not covered by our healthcare.
I can't function as a "normal" adult. I can't try to fix my family's and still focus on school. I'm 38 and finally got to a point where I made it to college. School is great, but I can't succeed at that if I'm focusing on keeping my family going. I also refuse to give up on my family. Been there, done that once before with bad results.
I can't even begin to access any type of supports without having an official diagnosis and how can I get to that if I can't even fully describe what I need. I need a social worker, someone who can understand my struggles and not just judge me as being lazy or stupid, or uncaring. I need someone to help me understand and navigate systems and services, someone who can speak for me when I can't find the way or words to explain what I understand, but can't verbalize. Ugh!
How do you make sense of it when things are good, but at the same time things are bad. My family needs help, but I don't know where to go or where to turn and the kind of help we need is not cheap, and is not covered by our healthcare.
I can't function as a "normal" adult. I can't try to fix my family's and still focus on school. I'm 38 and finally got to a point where I made it to college. School is great, but I can't succeed at that if I'm focusing on keeping my family going. I also refuse to give up on my family. Been there, done that once before with bad results.
I can't even begin to access any type of supports without having an official diagnosis and how can I get to that if I can't even fully describe what I need. I need a social worker, someone who can understand my struggles and not just judge me as being lazy or stupid, or uncaring. I need someone to help me understand and navigate systems and services, someone who can speak for me when I can't find the way or words to explain what I understand, but can't verbalize. Ugh!