Seeking my own autistic confirmation.

[An Arctic fox]

I'm sorry that you feel that way.
It is not my intention to be rude or offensive.

I figured that's why I said something about it instead of feeling personally offended

 

[An Arctic fox]

Yeah I've tried that it hasnt worked well but I can try it again

I tried it again and it just makes me more tense and gives me the urge to growl and idk why.

 

[tree]

Yeah I've tried that it hasnt worked well but I can try it again

It will take more than one try.
It will take trying, every day, every time you see it.
And sometimes....when you don't see it.

Also, saying to yourself, this is nothing that I need to worry about.

 

[An Arctic fox]

It will take more than one try.
It will take trying, every day, every time you see it.
And sometimes....when you don't see it.

Also, saying to yourself, this is nothing that I need to worry about.

I could but I'm unlikely to remember

I either say when I tell myself that their always is or what if there is. It could be a PTSD trigger to but I'm not sure

 

[Jeremy McLaughlin]

You were diagnosed with autism?
Do you mean that you doubt the diagnosis?
Why would our opinion be more validating than a doctor's?

The doctor seemed really bad.

 

[Jeremy McLaughlin]

Rocking, hand flapping and that sort

I used to rock and yell help over and over during the panic attacks for hours

 

[Jeremy McLaughlin]

Thank you, that's very helpful!

In that case, yes, I think you're autistic, OP. The chances that you're not seem very low. I'm sorry it took so long to be detected. It sounds like it was clear you needed intervention throughout all your schooling but were ignored.

Thank you Fino. I had to learn about the condition very quickly, so this is very new to intake. I feel that even the doctor wouldn't know it was well as some of you guys would; even though we're all very different.

 

[Jeremy McLaughlin]

Rocking, hand flapping and that sort

I used to rock when I had what felt like panic attacks, meltdown, shutdown. They usually happened at night, and I got comfort in rocking and repeating the word "help" the remainder of the night. My parents used to hate it because it would keep them up. Sometimes I would use "help me Lord, please help" in those exact words each time. I always done it in perfect rythm like music. If I got out of rythm, I sometimes felt worse, and had to fix it. Is that what you are referring to? It was voluntary, but felt necessary.

 

[An Arctic fox]

In my opinion it seems you have autism

 

[Jeremy McLaughlin]

In my opinion it seems you have autism

Thank you for the reply Arctic fox!

 

[An Arctic fox]

Thank you for the reply Arctic fox!

You're welcome!