Hi all, I have been reflecting a lot recently on masking and when that became something key for me. As a young child I didnt mask, I lived in my own mind and didnt worry too much about others.
I can remember the moment that changed, which might seem a daft one, especially as I have an ACE score of 10 for childhood! It was when I was about 7 maybe and had a childhood girlfriend (all very innocent stuff) her step-dad walking in when I had my arm around her and FREAKED out, threw me out the house calling me all sorts of names. I can't recall any other time I was so unsettled and after that I began to withdraw into myself and be far more careful what I did and how others might perceive it.
As I have been thinking about things I realise this is perhaps one of the key moments for me, it taught me others were dangerous, unpredictable and I had to be very careful in what I did. I learnt to blend, to read others really well (I study others and I am pretty good at reading them in the end).
Just curious if others have a moment that really stands out - though I fully realise that some might not want to share these!
I can remember the moment that changed, which might seem a daft one, especially as I have an ACE score of 10 for childhood! It was when I was about 7 maybe and had a childhood girlfriend (all very innocent stuff) her step-dad walking in when I had my arm around her and FREAKED out, threw me out the house calling me all sorts of names. I can't recall any other time I was so unsettled and after that I began to withdraw into myself and be far more careful what I did and how others might perceive it.
As I have been thinking about things I realise this is perhaps one of the key moments for me, it taught me others were dangerous, unpredictable and I had to be very careful in what I did. I learnt to blend, to read others really well (I study others and I am pretty good at reading them in the end).
Just curious if others have a moment that really stands out - though I fully realise that some might not want to share these!