JMcCauley
Member
When my psychiatrist first suggested I had Asperger's, I was relieved. I felt like I had an explanation for all of the things that were wrong in my life. Before, I really thought I was just a jerk, and lacked social skills for one reason or another.
Now I feel trapped. I feel as though having Asperger's is who I am and I can't escape it. I'm so aware now of all of the unnatural things I've been forcing myself into, and the actual me that feels close to full blown autistic, rather than aspergic. I don't know whether to get better at faking, and being normal, or to let go and be myself. I feel like I don't belong, like I'm trapped somewhere in the middle.
Has anyone else here felt worse after being diagnosed?
Now I feel trapped. I feel as though having Asperger's is who I am and I can't escape it. I'm so aware now of all of the unnatural things I've been forcing myself into, and the actual me that feels close to full blown autistic, rather than aspergic. I don't know whether to get better at faking, and being normal, or to let go and be myself. I feel like I don't belong, like I'm trapped somewhere in the middle.
Has anyone else here felt worse after being diagnosed?