Loomis
Well-Known Member
I think of myself as in the twilight zone between aspie and neurotypical. I was diagnosed on the spectrum by a highly qualified PhD psychologist at the autism society. Yet I can function pretty well in the world and few people would suspect I am on the spectrum. At the same time it is obvious to me that I have many autistic traits and behaviors that have caused varying amounts of stress in my life. Before I was diagnosed I was bewildered by many of my communication difficulties. I have low needs for social contact and usually watch vs. participate in social activities. I learned to look people in the eye because avoiding eye contact creates distrust in interactions with NTs. I taught myself to engage in small talk since it is part of socializing in the NT dominated world. I do not consider this to be "pretending to be NT" rather it is a necessary behavior to navigate society. There are experiences I want from people and I do not choose to be completely isolated and alone. The autism diagnosis I received was a great blessing giving me clearer insights into the behavioral issues which have vexed me and showing me what areas I needed to work on.
I have not posted or read much on the forum for a couple of months and during my time away I have had a tendency at times to forget I am on the spectrum. When I encountered social problems I did not always quickly recognize they were spectrum related though it should be obvious. So I need this website to maintain contact with kindred spirits and retain awareness of my aspie nature.
I have not posted or read much on the forum for a couple of months and during my time away I have had a tendency at times to forget I am on the spectrum. When I encountered social problems I did not always quickly recognize they were spectrum related though it should be obvious. So I need this website to maintain contact with kindred spirits and retain awareness of my aspie nature.