Iamnotarabot
Well-Known Member
Iv found a draft notebook in my room today with some notes in it...
It was some diary notes , In this book I wrote for a few days all of my insecurities , the fact that I didnt know who I was and why I was this bad at everything ; That I was hopeless, that I wanted to die.
It was 8 years ago.
I mean, I always have the illusion that I need no one to realy change the course of my life, but, man in 8 years nothing happened, well I didnt die at least.
I want to do things, but I am unable to start anything at all, and even those little things they are just distractions compared to the real challenges that I should face ,basically finding away to be independant...
Its like if no one force me to do anything I end up drinking cofee all day, eating , refreshing some website 'pages and look at some random youtube videos...
It was some diary notes , In this book I wrote for a few days all of my insecurities , the fact that I didnt know who I was and why I was this bad at everything ; That I was hopeless, that I wanted to die.
It was 8 years ago.
I mean, I always have the illusion that I need no one to realy change the course of my life, but, man in 8 years nothing happened, well I didnt die at least.
I want to do things, but I am unable to start anything at all, and even those little things they are just distractions compared to the real challenges that I should face ,basically finding away to be independant...
Its like if no one force me to do anything I end up drinking cofee all day, eating , refreshing some website 'pages and look at some random youtube videos...