But I do recognize that I am way more extroverted and gregarious than a lot of other autistic people and have more of a need for socializing regularly.
Same.
I have a huge group of more “surface level” irl friends (who are mostly *not* autistic, as far as I can tell, and mostly younger than me [early 20s]) and those friendships kind of come and go. I tend to meet people like this at social gatherings, organized activities, and through other friends or their siblings or partners. These friendships are pretty superficial and not always that satisfying (because I don’t think they actually care too deeply about me) but they are people to hang out with sometimes, and I am an extrovert and have a need for group socializing and occasionally going “out.” I wish these friendships were more fulfilling because I end up putting in way more than I get back.
Yes, similar here, although I struggle with not having close friendships - people with whom I could actually meet and share my feelings, worries etc. I generally do not vent often enough and it's bad for my mental health.
I have had the same small group of very close irl friends for quite a long time, some for 5+ and some even for 10+ years, and these friendships go a lot deeper and are more reciprocal. I do feel deeply cared about by these friends.
I wish I did. I'm 27. I didn't get on well with people in high school, I was a "tag along". The other friend group to which I belonged fell apart to a degree and our paths went in opposite directions as well, because they became politically conservative and religious, and weren't really understanding of other perspectives in that, I didn't feel seen, and I'm the total opposite, I mean, I don't care about religion one way or another, but I'm a trans person and I'm bisexual, and I'm 100% against any dogmas, mental health stigma present in Church, not respecting women's rights etc. Then I got on with lots of people during university (computer science degree), but these connections were passing, lots of people seem to get overwhelmed and interact only with people present only in their day-to-day reality. Then it got worse, because all my friends at university dropped out and then covid came. I tried to socialize with people through interests, but nothing came out of it. Including the LGBT community, I'm still trying, because I need emotional support, but ugh...
or at college organizations like the LGBTQ+ alliance
Hello fellow LGBT person! There are no LGBT alliances in my country, unfortunately, I wish there were. I'm trying to take part in local LGBT social opportunities, but like I said, it's tough.
Of course I have other interests as well, but there never seems to be enough continuity and connection to get to know someone enough to hang out together later. Perhaps this isn't an aspie thing, but I don't know if I should be approaching people or not. On one hand, maybe I should, but I don't want to approach them if they don't want to be approached, someone told me I come across as desperate if I try to approach people, but maybe this person was the problem, I kind of am desperate at this point, but so what? Don't I have the right to? But I also find it exhausting to write messages and to process the answer and wonder what exactly it meant, I mean, from an interpersonal viewpoint, if they like me or not, should I write again later or not etc. Maybe I'm overthinking. Maybe I come across as desperate, but it's a viscous cycle, if I come across this way, nobody will want to trust me or something? But I kind of am starved at this point. But maybe I just am nervous because the whole situations aren't exactly for me in terms of, like, the amount of smells, noises etc. and maybe this is why I come across as not confident enough and all kinds of things, in the light of my recent discovery, I have to say I'm less nervous while shopping if I play some music in my earbuds. I didn't really notice that before, but I feel nervous in public spaces like that. It's not that anything specifically sets me off, hence it was hard to identify, but I feel on guard. It doesn't make any sense whatsoever to me and I don't know where the solution lies.