Watched a video that made alot of sense expressing"Normals" seem to interact with one with another based on an emotional guidance system that when something feels good or is pleasant they tend to lean into it hense the building of friendships and spending more time together with of course a deeper connections based on commonality and interests.
But this makes me feel like a manipulator.. That if i make u feel good you will be more pleasant with me? If i appease your ego and make u feel good about yourself.. If i dont express myself too much simply because we dont know each other that well So i dont make you uncomfortable.. it doesn't make any sense.. how am i suppose to always read so deeply into someones emotional wellbeing and be proper.. its like everyone is living with the same emotional guidance and reactions to things?
Everyone then is lying to some extent to make the moment FEEL good.. So if someone looks bad you cant be honest about it, if something bothers you.. if someone hurts you.. its all in the avoidance of FEELINGS.. it angers me so deeply that a whole society can be so illogical and it be whats considered normal and healthy.
Everyone is play a game not to step on toes or make something awkward ...just playing a stupid game and not being true to ourselfs.. then people get lost in it and become the mask.. just like the movie
I'm sorry for the rant but i feel very alone and stuck with this problem.
But this makes me feel like a manipulator.. That if i make u feel good you will be more pleasant with me? If i appease your ego and make u feel good about yourself.. If i dont express myself too much simply because we dont know each other that well So i dont make you uncomfortable.. it doesn't make any sense.. how am i suppose to always read so deeply into someones emotional wellbeing and be proper.. its like everyone is living with the same emotional guidance and reactions to things?
Everyone then is lying to some extent to make the moment FEEL good.. So if someone looks bad you cant be honest about it, if something bothers you.. if someone hurts you.. its all in the avoidance of FEELINGS.. it angers me so deeply that a whole society can be so illogical and it be whats considered normal and healthy.
Everyone is play a game not to step on toes or make something awkward ...just playing a stupid game and not being true to ourselfs.. then people get lost in it and become the mask.. just like the movie
I'm sorry for the rant but i feel very alone and stuck with this problem.