dreams of my death

[eon]

does anyone much read everyone's introductions here?

i've been here a while but havent visited recently... busy with life.

anyway... all i could want to share about me regarding my spectrum individuality can be read on my blog, All the selves, all lined up...

i have summary pages set up so that you don't have to dive into the full blog which is broken down into greatly detailed sections.

the purpose of this post is that i wanted to introduce me.. through the medium i feel best communicates who and what i am. musically. my interests in dream physiology, and death as a defining feature of the existence of an animal beings, are long standing, and i've branded my musical work with these ideas as it is the best fit of the feelings contained in the sound.

the music i've produced is not painstakingly imagined, nor revised. through process over product creative effort, i engage in a sort of discovering of each piece.

tonight i tried a new music tool & the result i feel must be heard and i would also welcome feedback. i don't see a specific board here set up for sharing/discussion of our creative work

take 2 minutes to listen if you've taken the time already to read my post.

go back

 

[Geordie]

nice, unique introduction. wow

 

[eon]

i have finished writing the song and spent today repeat listening to tweak the balance of the sound.

my fury is hereby unleashed

go_back by dreamsofmydeath on SoundCloud - Create, record and share your sounds for free

 

[eon]

love this song so much. it suddenly represents a whole new depth as i've stumbled into a recognition of myself dually as an Attention differential brain and a self encased in Stone behaviors of avoidance, withdrawal, and all out disconnect escapism / dissociation in my complex PTSD.

i must now go back... and see myself mindfully, to untangle this and try to unlock these parts of myself presumably locked away for safe keeping while i was growing up amid grief and trauma