Ive spent much of my adult life misreading situations. To the point where I couldn't trust my interpretation of them. Based on this I began offering up apologys for my indiscretions, whether I understood them or not.
So here I am many years later, with a better understanding of who I am and how I affect others. Heres the rub. I find myself offering up apologies for minor things, even though Im sure as to where a problem lies, and that is what ppl expect of me. Its almost like Ive created
an expectation of being the one to apologize. With each incident their expectations become more and more ridiculous. Its almost like, now im taking responsiblity for how I affect ppl, that others have no need to be accountable, in my presence. To add another twist, the only ones who expect this behavior of me, are the ones who are aware of my condition. Ive worked very hard at understanding myself and how I impact on others, but its so bitterly disappointing that those who are closest, discriminate agsinst me more than the rest of the NT world. Does anyone else find themselves offering up apologys, just to keep the peace, even when your sure your right.
Cheers
Turk
So here I am many years later, with a better understanding of who I am and how I affect others. Heres the rub. I find myself offering up apologies for minor things, even though Im sure as to where a problem lies, and that is what ppl expect of me. Its almost like Ive created
an expectation of being the one to apologize. With each incident their expectations become more and more ridiculous. Its almost like, now im taking responsiblity for how I affect ppl, that others have no need to be accountable, in my presence. To add another twist, the only ones who expect this behavior of me, are the ones who are aware of my condition. Ive worked very hard at understanding myself and how I impact on others, but its so bitterly disappointing that those who are closest, discriminate agsinst me more than the rest of the NT world. Does anyone else find themselves offering up apologys, just to keep the peace, even when your sure your right.
Cheers
Turk