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You hit the nail on the head!!! I get so sick of people, especially “friends” telling me, “You need to get out,” or “You sit in your house and brood,” or “You live alone and sit around thinking about things.” Sheesh, but they make me sound like the Unabomber. I do NOT like to go out, as I am uncomfortable in crowded places, noisy places, or crowded noisy places. Besides, why do I need to get out? I’m quite happy at home. And yes, I do live alone. What’s wrong with that? I have one set of friends that do seem to be taking the time to get to know me, especially since I have disclosed being an Aspie. They do not drop last minute invitations on me, nor do they invite me to unfamiliar or crowded places. My depression can come for no reason, but the behavior of some friends can also trigger it.
Each time I read, post, and get a response, I'm amazed. I wish I had found this site a long time ago. I, too, have difficulty keeping a job. The one I have now is the longest at 5 1/2 years. Believe it or not, but I have had 72 jobs in my life. People used to joke about how I could waltz in and out of jobs, which was easy a few years ago. Now, at my age and in this economy, it's not as easy. I feel trapped, even more so working in a hostile work environment. Thus far, it seems every Aspie with whom I've communicated has had the same issues with employment. Maybe we should consider forming our own country. :rolleyes2:
Depression is a serious condition and can be dangerous too. You don't just snap out of it. You can learn how to deal with it and you can treat it though.
I find that help is usually not what I need. No one yet has been able to give me the help I need. I just give up.
I find that help is usually not what I need. No one yet has been able to give me the help I need. I just give up.
Do you feel there is help that can help you? And that the help you get just doesn't suit your needs?
I think there is the possibility of someone who can help me evict the demons that follow me every day of my life but I haven't met them yet. Most therapists I meet are quick to whip out their prescription pad and send you on your way. I've been there done that got the T shirt and I'm still in the same place as I started. I've done all the talking BS, I've done all the standard "that covers 90% of people things". I'm fully prepared to try the hard work answers. I'm fully prepared to do what it takes ... I just can't seem to find the answer I need.
I think I need like cognitive reprogramming or something but to get that help ... that just doesn't exist in the town I live in.
I'm slowly dying in this town. I can't talk to anyone about it either ... if I tell my husband how I feel he just makes it all about him, I have no friends ... I have nothing ... I can't talk to my family ... the only "friends" I have are on the internet ... I can't even get a bloody job at a fast food restaurant ...
one day I will get the guts up to kill myself ... I have known for a very long time that is how my life will end ... I just don't know when. I know I should feel happy and grateful for what I have - I have food in my cupboards, I have a roof over my head, I have a husband who loves me, I have clothes on my back, I have money in our bank account. So many would kill for what I have. What do I really have to complain about?
I just wish I could claw all of the hurt and crap out my head ... make it go away.
My question is do all Aspies suffer from depression?