Amanda cohen
New Member
Hey I have this problem and I can't find info on it anywhere.
I should start by saying I've never been molested in anyway.
I'm struggling with this issue where I want to have fun and different sex with my NT/ boyfriend of 5 years but in regards to the way I see sex, I'm really into it when it's happening and i want it a lot in theory but the rest of the time looking back at my sexual experiences I feel impure/unclean/disgusting/worthless/ashamed after sex. Like a rape victim somehow. I want to try things and explore my sexuality but I can't when literally half the time I feel for me personally sex is wrong and impure and bad and the other half the time I really want it and enjoy it and don't mind.
I should start by saying I've never been molested in anyway.
I'm struggling with this issue where I want to have fun and different sex with my NT/ boyfriend of 5 years but in regards to the way I see sex, I'm really into it when it's happening and i want it a lot in theory but the rest of the time looking back at my sexual experiences I feel impure/unclean/disgusting/worthless/ashamed after sex. Like a rape victim somehow. I want to try things and explore my sexuality but I can't when literally half the time I feel for me personally sex is wrong and impure and bad and the other half the time I really want it and enjoy it and don't mind.