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AprilR

AprilR

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  • AprilR
    My friend who ghosted me invited me for her daughter's birthday bc she wanted me to come
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Idk what to think but i am going anyway. I missed her mom and her daughter too. I was really close with her family also
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    Perhaps you should send her a message before you arrive so things won't be weird once you are there? I guess you know the relationship you two had more than I do.
    AprilR
    Feeling way too much self hatred. I wish i can erase my memories with the people who ghosted me.
    Loren
    Loren
    Hugs to you. I have experienced the same, and I understand how it can feel isolating and hopeless. Just know that eventually it will pass. I never thought it could, because, it consumed me for almost a decade. Mine was due to a smear campaign, by an unfavorable person. Not to make this about me. Just want you to know, you are understood and people here care about you.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you so much. It is hard to believe i am a good person sometimes. Not having any friends i feel evil and defective. I am sorry you went through the same thing also. I wish we can both heal soon.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Oh dear. It's hard. Stay strong.
    AprilR
    I feel just like a Regular person nowadays except i don't feel anything else
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    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    With the students I was teaching, I had a karate bear that you squeezed and it made random karate noises with a Japanese accent. Before presentations I asked who was nervous - which was usually more than half the class - and told them I sympathised etc.
    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    Also that I had a magic anti-stress bear. I demonstrated how to use it and said it would be available for them to squeeze if they were feeling nerves. The endorphins thus generated would help. They loved the karate bear and it got them and the whole class laughing to use it, which relaxed them! :)
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I dropped out of a masters program bc i was too scared of presentations. My mind goes blank and i stutter a lot. I am not sure if exposure therapy would have helped
    AprilR
    Anxiety and exhausted. I slept right after dinner yesterday again. Still don't feel well rested
    Irakus34
    Irakus34
    Take your time. Sometimes just a night isn't enough. I usually need the whole weekend to rest properly. Get well soon o/
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thanks. It's almost friday thankfully
    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    Hope you're having a good weekend! :)
    AprilR
    Message to myself:Life doesn't have to be happy and meaningful. Just breathing is enough
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    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    yes, it´s hard to recognize which condition and feeling someone has when he/she posts something. I´m glad that you are okay.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I am disappointed in life and people. I had expected more but life didn't deliver. But that was my own fault
    W
    Wolfnox
    Wonderful life moment on the horizon.
    AprilR
    I don't have time to wallow in feelings. I will be productive this weekend!
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    Ty so much! Hope you can also get to relax soon.
    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    Relaxing now. Roast in oven with roast veggie accompaniment - pumpkin wedges, potatoes - and steamed beans and corn. Apple crumble and cream for afters. Stomach says "growl"! :)
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yummy! I only had some toast and salad since i am on a diet, will see how long it will last lol
    AprilR
    Missing my friends, sometimes i wish i never got close to them in the first place.
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    They are angry/hurt because i didn't take sides between their personal dispute. I find it extremely immature and stupid
    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    That's most probably because it IS immature and stupid. Maybe they are used to triangulating from their families of origin. Stuff like that is passed on to kids like fleas get passed on in a kennel...
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yeah, i don't take it personal at all, but they were both people i knew way back then. It is sad how people can discard such relationships easily
    AprilR
    Anxiety, nausea, racing thoughts. Quitting smoking is hard.
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    Callistemon
    Callistemon
    Oh! OK, that's very fresh then (first day of quitting). Nicotine is one of the most addictive things there is, apparently. Sending good vibes!
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Cold turkey? (no pun intended lol) They have tablets for that.
    I come from a family of heavy smokers. So I heard about it. They have lozenges, nicotine doses, maybe you should try to get your hands on this stuff. I imagine it would be helpful to take when quitting.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Haha, i also know about those, i may have to try if it gets too hard.
    AprilR
    It's so hard to understand people's intentions
    Raggamuffin
    Raggamuffin
    Their intentions and our interpretations of them will almost always be different to some degree. There's always freedom to choose how we react to other people's actions though. So you're never powerless in that respect.
    Atrapa Almas
    Atrapa Almas
    Look at their actions over time.
    musicallessness
    musicallessness
    especially when they try to be friend my already kind demeanor and then they quickly realize there's a lot of strength behind that kindness. oh strength can be my kyrptonite thinking I'm aggressive when they slander or attack me
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