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@Stuttermabolur thank you!

@Gerontius a professional certification in socio-sanitary field o/

@Aspychata thank you n.n

@Stuttermabolur I tried my best in all I could do and actually it worked and I got through it without any major burnout o/

Great to hear! It sounded like you were under a lot of stress in your blog post, so it's good that things have gone well recently. You can be well proud of yourself as that work sounded really difficult.

@Stuttermabolur I was for real. Everything seemed as swallowing me at that time, but somehow I could manage all of it and things finally worked out. My work is pretty hard and tiring but seriously rewarding, so right now I'm deeply satisfied with being there though my autistic traits can be challenging sometimes. Thank you for your concern <3

Literally this was written and I was asked how I was doing. Fate I guess.

I guess it depends on what you are working on, and why. I don't believe in providence. I think people are rewarded when someone rewards them (or they find the act rewarding), but the act itself doesn't call for a reward even if it would be fair.

@Stuttermabolur It's just like a vague attempt to keep positive. Like when you work hard and get a job in the end. When my brain only wants to destroy any possibility of keeping up, I guess my trick is to think like that.

Keep at it. Best work is ahead of you. Remember to take breaks.

@Wolfy Smurf Thank you~ I do take more breaks than what I actually practice lol.

@Atrapa Almas that's a very complicated question. And I'm afraid to answer probably yes, I'm included.

In my humble opinion, once we accept, respect and love ourselves we are ready to start accepting, respecting and loving others.

@Atrapa Almas I agree completely. However, no matter how I try to love myself, I know I can't accept myself yet.

Why do you think anyone prefers a meltdown over a shutdown?

@Gerontius yes, for me it's kinda "healthier" because I don't go under the pressure of bursting and manage all the anxiety and situations I vreate in the meantime.

@Stuttermabolur I don't think so, I wanted to ask and see if someone else in here relates to this way of thinking. I like to hear different opinions and experiences.

The expo was quick, just 10 minutes talking thanksfully. But the activity became 1 hr and 40 minutes constantly talking and interacting with everyone, smiling, clapping. I had to control my desire to cover my ears so many times lol However, I'm proud with the result o/

I'm happy for you & I am proud of you too.

@Gerontius thank you so much <3

I've read the whole FAQ, rules and guidelines, but I haven't found anything related to adding a ko-fi or alike. Before doing something wrong, I rather ask first.

You felt something more enjoyable.

I just read that, and it seemed like a really stressful and uncomfortable situation! No wonder you feel upset. You probably know this already, but none of the stuff that happened was really your fault. You didn't know what was going to happen and got overwhelmed.

In the future, I think it might be a good idea to speak with your instructor about any activities beforehand so there won't be many surprises for you and maybe you can be accommodated. I definitely understand feeling humiliated by how your classmates reacted. That one guy sounds really immature. I hope your studies go better for you and that you will manage to calm down after that upsetting situation.

@Stuttermabolur actually I think everything is my fault. I usually think so then in this situations, my feeling is horrible.
My teacher knows I'm mentally unstable, especially with loud noises and tries to help me as much as she can. She'll talk to me and I'm afraid of what may happen tomorrow. I have to fight myself till then... Thanks for your comment <3

@Raggamuffin indeed, I love music, but I did hate it that day.

@crewlucaa_ it's horrible, but I felt safe tbh.

I’m glad you felt safe. People can be really horrible.

Me too :)

Insecure people project outwards. It tends to be how bullies operate. An inner sadness, that ends up being other people's burden.