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I want to get fired

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I want to get fired so i can finally rest a little. It feels like weekends just pass by and i never feel well rested.

My job is too fast paced, and i am too slow. I am also regularly feeling angry and numb and don't have time or energy to socialize with my coworkers any more.
Today was so hard to withstand. I couldn't eat much either, had no appetite from anxiety.

I want to quit but i am scared of disappointing my parents and i am also getting older and need all the experience i can get. I wish life was easier. I wish i had a friend i can talk about how difficult it is for me. The more i bottle up things the more hatred i feel for the world. And i dont want to be a hateful person.

I also keep dreaming about my old best friend which makes me feel guilty and miss her, i feel like life is meaningless now that i don't even have anyone i have fun with and tell even a little of my difficulties. I am so tired of everything i Just want to stay at home and daydream my life away.

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